Rokkoh and the Princess, Chapters 10 and 11

For but a moment, only for a second, there is darkness. An eternal black. Neither hot nor cold. Weightless. Silent. A void. I cannot tell if I am asleep or dead. But for all there is not, there is one thing. Overwhelming in the dark, suffocating in it, is the utter fucking dread. Of what or whom, I do not know. A presence surrounds me in the nothingness. Something gigantic, but solitary. The fear intensifies. I feel small, insignificant, like a bug. My tiny heart beats in my tiny chest, a vigorous and rapid rhythm. The weight comes then, immense and crushing. The half giant’s laughter harmonizes with the melody of my broken bones.

Light pours into the cabin of the carriage through the open door. The brightness is too much for my waking eyes; I shield them from the sting with my arm. Across from me, lying on the cushion with a permanent smile and glossy eyes, is Borso. The dark marbles, in contrast to the pleasant look on his little face, panic with an endless silent scream. The shrieking hits my ears then, the pure terror reverberating the high tone within my skull. It cuts off.

The sunlight swallows me whole as I land on the dirt of the road. Torvald in his regular spot is slumped over to the side, eyes closed but breathing. The humongous horse rests on the ground, a crimson glistening amongst the chestnut on its right side. Bushes rustle in the forest to the south. Lavender reveals herself in a vicious anger. My free hand reaches out, palm facing the trees.

Undva delo iche quercho,” the words come low and animalistic. 

The simple spell only takes a single utterance, my eyes drawn to the space between two of the tall oaks. I set off in a sprint, focused with deadly aim on where my guided instincts lead me. The surrounding greenery blurs with my haste. Six figures come into view far ahead. They break through the sea of bark and foliage, entering a clearing. At the opposite edge, they slow to a stop. They turn and face me as I breach the edge. From left to right stand a male elf, four human men, and a lone bearded dwarf. The man nearest the elf carries something bundled in a white blanket. They all watch me from one hundred yards. 

The elf, his elegant silvery blond hair tied into a tight knot like the half-giant’s, says something to his neighbor. I can’t make out the words from my distance, nor can I read the elf’s thin lips. The man, with slicked back hair and a wicked grin, turns and disappears into the words. Blood boils in my veins as the echoes of her horror fill in my mind. The elf’s mouth moves again while his eyes remain on me. A carefree hand motions to me. Twins of dark skin, their black hair and beards both short, advance with puny iron swords drawn. Determination pinches their faces into identical scowls.

My vocal cords rattle harsh and deafening. My eyes widen, crazed and violent, as I charge. The left twin slows in his steps, that look of grit loosening into a thinly veiled fear. The other, however, presses on undaunted. We meet in the middle of the clearing. The poor fool’s swordarm does not get the chance to strike. Lavender plunges into his chest, piercing the leather of his vest on his back. He sucks in a half-breath, unable to keep it for long. He chokes on it as a sturdy kick releases him from Lavender’s embrace. Warm droplets of sanguine catch on my face.

The twin, face full of that fantastic fucking fear, watches his brother gasp for air that does not come. In a sweet moment of regained courage, he gives his own battlecry. I oblige and continue forward. His sword rises high and comes down for me. My left hand leaves Lavender for a moment, deflecting my foe’s blade with the steel of my armguard. My foot finds his delicates in a powerful strike. He doubles over, a stream of vomit spewing from his maw. My hand returns to my lady. She separates his head from his shoulders in an easy slice.

Furious blue eyes focus on the elf as his mouth moves again. He speaks low, the coward. The final man comes to me, thirty yards from his leader. Bigger than the others, he matches me in height and brawn. Sun-kissed skin and hair the color of the sun, I could have been him in another life. We could have been brothers. Yet we stand in a clearing, enemies. His sword smashes against my breastplate, knocking me back a step. For all his strength, he has poor form; he allows his sword to drop to his side as a proud, unearned sense of victory glints in eyes. Lavender tickles his left knee, meeting the other on its playful journey. He loses his footing and crumbles to the ground. He soaks the grass in a terrible red as he reaches fruitlessly for his severed shins. Part of me wants to end his suffering, be merciful to the man I could have been. I press on.

“Get him, you short fuck!” the elf screams at his last cohort, an angry finger pointing in my direction. The brunette beard shakes as he raises gloved hands in surrender.

“I ain’t got no deathwish,” the dwarf says.

The elf groans, frustrated, and reveals a crossbow from his back. He loads a bolt into the groove. Lavender rises, ready to cut the narrow thing in half. The bolt fires to the side, nestling itself in the dwarf’s temple. The wise one’s face grows vacant before thudding to the ground.

Ten yards separate the elf and me. With all my might, I send Lavender flying, tip over pommel, toward the elf. She finds a home in his shoulder, pinning him to a tree trunk. The crossbow drops. A desperate, delicious fear lights up his face, replacing the confident bravado. He pulls on Lavender’s hilt to free himself to no avail. 

My pace slows as I draw near, but the ferocious vitriol remains. A fatigue fades into my muscles, my breath heavy and sweat mixing with the strangers’ blood. Yet I press on. He realizes the futility of his attempts to dislodge himself once I arrive, but one hand remains loose on the hilt. My fist sends his head back, chipping away at some of the bark. My gauntlets leave deep, glorious cuts in his sallow skin with every righteous strike.

“Where is he taking her?” I roar into his broken and bleeding face.

It takes a moment for the answer to come. A couple of teeth escape as he expels a mouthful of blood. But in his anguish, he releases a solitary word: home. There is honesty in his simple answer. Why lie? He knows what will happen. This cannot and will not end well for him. But to what end? Could he escape with only wounds? 

“There’s a road on the other side of this stretch of forest,” the elf offers. “We have a horse waiting there. You might be able to catch him before he gets to it. Please, just let me live.

The flames of ire grow higher and hotter. Lavender pulls free from the trunk and his flesh. A pitiful, bloody word of thanks falls out of his mouth. Lavender dives into his crown and retreats through the mess of what remains of his face.

The clearing’s silence is overbearing, almost maddening. The legless one had even ceased his wailing. My guess is that he ran out of blood not long after I abandoned him. Taking in deep pulls of air, I center myself. My hand reaches for the woods again, and I feel the faint pull of where I must go.

Dondib celoceit comet pomio correoden dut entinei kanici,” I whisper, eyes closed and my hand hovering over my heart. The prayer comes thrice, a strength returning to my body. That familiar warmth envelops me, and soon I can feel the All-Mother’s power coursing through me. 

My legs carry me faster than before as I hunt down my last enemy. Dodging thick, old trees, I look for the bastard. A path of broken flowers and various growth guides me on his trek through the brush. A figure appears on the path ahead of me. Reaching out to a low-hanging branch, I break off a broad bit of wood. Hefty, nearly a foot in length, I hurl it at the man. It collides with his head, sending him to the ground. He drops the bundle in his arms, the white blanket and its contents cascading into a cluster of flowers. Like a wild predator, I descend upon him, landing on his back. A hand reaches out to a loose dagger lying amongst yellow flowers, but its desire waits just beyond his reach. 

The bundle does not move. My eyes go to the dagger once more, my own hand reaching out to it. It seems too light in my hand, too delicate. Then again, I’ve grown accustomed to Lavender’s weight after so many years. A simple weapon, yet effective. A prime choice for a sidearm, or as a main for those well versed in the art of shadows. Like Kym. She would test this blade’s sharpness on the man’s neck, let it glide across his throat. My curiosity hovers over that method for a moment, but it would be too quick of a death for a kidnapper. No, he has deserved worse. The tip of the metal traces his spine, only the cloth of his white shirt protecting his skin. Another thought occurs.

“Please, don’t hurt me,” he begs, his voice cracking. “We were just doing our job!”

Skrolba’s warmth disappears. The lethargy settles back in. Spots of scarlet spread from his supple skin. I don’t keep track of how many times the dagger sinks into his back and comes out again. After a while, he is still and silent. The blade remains in its final burial. 

Crawling to the bundle, my body aches. Yet I take the bundle into my own arms, removing the white blanket covering her face. She sleeps, unharmed and unaware. Such perfect beauty, such pure innocence, such heartwarming peace. Holding her close to me, we venture back to the road. She remains in her dreams. Thank the All-Mother. No need for her to see any of my carnage.

The carriage hasn’t moved. The horse still rests on the ground, its legs tucked underneath its body. Torvald remains in his spot, leaning to his left. If it weren’t for the pink in his skin, I would worry he had slipped into the hands of Death. The light snoring helps confirm he is still alive as well. I return Evalina to the soft seat, tucking Borso into her blanket. Her arms wrap around him tight. I close the door, palms on either side as the carriage holds me up. My muscles are engulfed in flames. My lungs scream as I struggle to breathe. Stars dance in my eyes, dazzling and dizzying. My legs stay stable, for now, as I push away. 

Slow steps lead me back to our equine friend. Kneeling in front of its wound, it appears to not be too deep of a laceration. Likely just an attempt to stop the beast, not kill it. Interesting. Back in the day, we found it better to leave our targets stranded. Maybe banditry has changed since I left that industry. Or, perhaps the goblin innkeeper in Red Bear had been truthful; these bastards were not mere bandits. And that’s to say those we crossed at the banks of the Red Bear River were the same who had gotten their grimy hands on the princess. If word has gotten out about my little companion, then what is stopping the world of lowlifes and criminals from trying to cash in on a possible ransom?

Well, other than me, of course.

Heirina veriten,” the spell comes soft. The horse fusses when my hands come near the gash, but settles down. I say it a few more times, the nasty cut shrinking with each syllable. The horse’s flesh closes up, becomes whole once more. It gives a whinny of approval and stands up. 

Winter takes up residence in my veins. The sudden rush of cold knocks out what little breath I had left in me. Resting back on my heels, the tiredness crescendos. There is not much energy left in me. My eyelids tease each other, coming close but never touching. I could fall asleep here, freeze here. They would find my body millenia later, perfectly preserved thanks to the intense tundra conditions inside of me. My arms grow heavy and hang useless in my lap. My armor weighs me down, conspiring with gravity to drag me to the dirt and leave me there. I stay on my knees, somehow, but lying down seems like a damn good idea.

“Sir Rokkoh?” comes the boy’s voice, weak and confused. “Are you okay?”

Deep within the snow, a spark ignites. It flickers into flame, melting the surrounding coldness. I stand, though my legs are uncertain how long they can keep me up. My arms delve into my well of strength, reaching deep for just a drop. Torvald gives me a sleepy look as he sits up, his eyes widening at my grisly visage.

“Oh my…” he gasps.

Fingers grasp the cloth of his blue shirt in a tight fist. A stiff tug pulls him to the ground with a hard slam. His thin frame squirms underneath me as I straddle him. On his back, and with my grip still on him, he looks up to me in bewilderment. It would otherwise slow my hand, cool the fury, but not this day.

“What happened, boy?” I shout, jerking him up so the words can crash on his skin. “Did you fall asleep? Did you get distracted by something shiny? What the fuck happened?”

The fear in his eyes brings me no joy, no pleasure. He is no foe, just a fool. If anything, I worry that he’ll soil himself again. I saw no river on my pursuit. Perhaps there is one on the other side of the road. For his sake, I hope so.

“I don’t know what happened,” he whimpers, tears in his reddening eyes. “I swear, Sir! We had just passed into Walteria when a madman sprung from the trees and blocked the road. He was huge! Not like that half giant, more like you, but with hair. Then a whole gang of them ambushed us. One of them attacked the horse! I tried calling out for you, but you didn’t come. Then an elf put me to sleep. I don’t know what happened after that. I only just now woke up. Please believe me, Sir Rokkoh! I swear on my life!”

Narrow eyes study him for a long moment, finding no trace of a lie in his restrained weeping. What good would it do to lie anyway? I release the boy and get to my feet, making my way back to the carriage. His tears fall as he sits up; wipes them away so I won’t see him cry. That brief rush of adrenaline leaves me, and my head spins. My hand caresses the wood of the carriage. I pause in my steps, my back turned to him. My palm goes flat against the carriage, the only thing holding me up as another wave of debilitating weariness hits me.

“Get us to Lower Yellowberry,” I growl, a thread of a threat lingering in my voice. My breath is shallow, and beads of sweat form on my brow. But he can’t see me like this. He can’t see how weak I am. That respect he holds for me would dissolve if he knew what it truly took to wield a fraction of divine power. Thank the gods he only aspires for knighthood. The boy wouldn’t be able to handle being part of the Order. 

I climb into the carriage, shut the door behind me, and sleep once we start moving again.

The garden is vacant. The animals are silent. Even the fish hide from me. I remove my bloodstained armor and kneel naked beside the brook. The surface is still, frozen yet not cold. My hands reach down into the water, submerging for a moment to collect water in my cupped fingers and then resurfacing. The clear liquid turns red as my hand rises. Thick and smelling of old coins, the blood drips from my skin and taints the water below. The crimson creeps up my arms, tendrils snaking up my skin and staining it scarlet. It spreads to my shoulders, my chest, my stomach. Every new place it grows becomes warm, almost to a sickly degree. My heart pounds as I get to my feet, and a panic sets in. Soon the red covers me whole, head to toe garnets and cherries.

“Your Mother is displeased,” a voice echoes through the static trees. Neither masculine nor feminine, young nor old, upset nor calm. The sky grows dark, a storm in the evening. 

“I know,” I respond, looking around for the source. “They took the girl.”

“Foolish boy,” the voice teases. “Are you the only one allowed to deliver her home?”

“The Queen tasked me to do so,” I rebut. Endless trees stare at me from behind, but I cannot see anyone hiding within them. “It was my duty.”

“A queen, yes, but not the girl’s queen. Does she have no say in who returns her daughter? Do you wield more authority than her men?”

I go quiet for a long moment. My eyes stop searching for the one who speaks to me. Instead, they find the grass. Green, despite my wet bitter cardinal. Shame takes hold of me; what I had done was far from righteous, disgustingly barbaric. I knew it in the moment, but I was too focused on fury to question my own actions. 

“I was given specific orders,” I offer, small and meek. “I was to bring her to a vicar. They were no clergymen.”

“Ah,” the voice chuckles. “You know all, do you?”

“No, I do not proclaim such,” I say, covering my manhood from the leering ashes, elms, and willows.

“Do you regret these actions?” the voice asks after a long silence.

“I do not regret wishing to protect the child,” I answer, “but I do regret my rage. I regret my hasty violence. I’m sorry.”

The sky lightens, turning back to that perfect blue. Birds chirp in the trees. A fuzzy bee buzzes past my ear on its way to the next flower. The brook babbles once more. When I turn to face its sound, she is there. Gazing into the waters, resting on her knees, her uncovered skin soaking in the sweet sun, the All-Mother returns. She takes the form of the dwarf, her auburn hair braided down her back. I kneel beside her, eyes keeping away from her beauty. She produces a pitcher from underneath the pure and pristine water. Overflowing, the excess trickles down the side of the round porcelain thing. She brings it close to her, admiring it for a moment, and then raising it over my head.

“You are forgiven, my child,” she coos in my head. As she pours the water over me, washing away the blood, relief and gratitude bring me to tears. She comforts me once I am clean, divine warmth radiating from the arms she wraps around me. A calm overcomes me as the last of the red vanishes. She places a soft kiss on my stubbly cheek, and bids me to awaken. I obey.

Continue to Chapter Twelve

Rokkoh and the Princess, Chapter 9

She doesn’t mean to. She is likely unaware of it. Where would she have even learned it? One of her parents or maybe a handmaiden, perhaps. Regardless, Evalina does not intend on initiating a staring contest, yet we are locked in a heated battle of seeing who will blink first. Years of training since childhood, though not when I was quite as young as she, has prepared me for such a match of wills. My eyes, after a prolonged time, begin to beg for a pardon. Blink, damn you, they curse me. But I will not yield. I will not bend to this toddler, this baby. Those big blue eyes as deep as the ocean and as dazzling as sapphires will not gleam in glorious victory. I will not give in. I will not blink. Not before she blinks. She is but a child, and her determination could and will never be greater than mine.

I blink. Fuck.

“I win!” she exclaims, bouncing in her seat. “I win!”

“Congratulations, little one,” I smile at her, envious of her unbridled joy. What I wouldn’t give to be that happy.

“Prize!”

She stops bouncing, the glee paused at my raised eyebrow. She goes quiet for a long moment, the delight bleeding out of her with every passing second.

“You want a prize for winning the game?” I ask, not able to take the sight of her fading smile any longer.

“Yes, please,” she says, almost sheepish. “Prize, please.”

“And what do you want for your prize?”

“I dunno,” she shrugs, the hem of her green dress becoming vaguely interesting. She runs her tiny fingers over the white lace; the material reminds me of doilies the Baroness kept on her desk in her office in the Tower of Lost Children.

“Okay,” I nod, tucking those memories away. “We’ll find you a prize next time we stop.”

“Prize!” The joy returns, and so does her toothy grin. 

“Sir Rokkoh?” Torvald calls as the carriage comes to a stop once more.

“I’ll be right back,” I tell the princess, sporting that recurring smile she inspires. She nods, her focus returning to her dress. 

Outside, with the carriage door closed, everything seems alright. No one lurks on the road behind or ahead. The boy doesn’t look frightened or worried. The enormous horse is calm. Curious, I move to the horse’s head, giving it gentle pats along the way. Once there, with my view of the other side of the road no longer blocked by the equestrian behemoth, I find the reason Torvald stopped us.

“It isn’t too late in the morning,” he postulates. “They’re probably still serving breakfast. I hope so, at least. I haven’t stopped thinking of that bacon.”

Nestled amongst the trees sits a single-level building. Made of a dark wood, its two windows covered by curtains inside, it gives off only a slightly creepy aura. Two small gargoyles, one white and the other black, stand guard at the door. Their hunched frames show off the ridges of their spines. Sinewy arms wrap around the poles of spears, strong yet bony hands holding tight. Their ears are long and pointed, upright and alert. For a moment, I can’t help but think they’re perked up due to our arrival. Their faces, to my surprise, display joyous smiles like Evalina’s. Perhaps these carved stone folk are unlike their bloodthirsty kin. Perhaps this duo, like my own brethren in the Paladin Order, are meant to protect.

“Only one way to find out,” I say, heading back to the carriage.

Evalina, to my surprise, waits in the open door. I glance around, looking for potential kidnappers, but we are alone.

“Were you trying to get out?” I ask her, a curious humor on my lips.

“Didn’t say I couldn’t come,” she explains, holding out her arms to me. “Uppy?”

“Fair enough,” I shrug, taking her in my arms and closing the door. 

Torvald joins us as we approach the building, and I glance at the sign hanging above the door. Elloriana’s Cure, it reads crudely carved. Under the name, etched more precise and clean, are three symbols: a triangular bottle topped with a cork; a fork and a knife crossed over each other to make an X; and a bed. Together they all form a triangle, the bottle and cutlery on top and the bed on bottom. A twinge of unease voices itself in my gut, but I ignore it as Evalina points to the guardsmen.

“Friends,” she says, waving to them. I watch the gargoyles for a moment, waiting for them to come to life and wave back. They remain motionless.

“Yes, honey, friends,” I agree with her.

“Personally, gargoyles always kinda freaked me out,” Torvald mutters behind us.

“Don’t be rude,” I scold him over my shoulder. “The princess says they’re friends, so they’re our friends.”

With my free hand, I reach for the door knob. Inches away, the round iron turns. The door swings open, swinging inward and revealing a stout woman, short but thick with strength. Her broad shoulders fill most of the doorway, and her head stops just shy of half the height of the space. A dress, white and flowing, covers her frame. Her auburn hair is pulled back into a thick braid that runs down the length of her back, two tendrils loose and hanging on either side of her face. Her face is clear, clean, devoid of scars or blemishes, almost as if it’s brand new, round with dimples in her cheeks. She eyes us for a moment, the unnervingly bright green things almost illuminated and glowing. They hang on me for too long of a moment, but then move on to my companions. An odd familiarity flickers in my memory, something not her but eerily similar. I can’t place it. Her sudden smile, wide and warm, snuffs that sparking would-be flame.

“You lot look a bit peaky,” she says. She steps aside. “Come on in. I’ll fix you up something to eat.”

The exterior does a disservice to the interior. While the outside is dark and eerie, the inside is brightly lit, clean, and cozy. A few small round tables dot the room, a couple chairs at each. Beautiful and intricate paintings hang on the wall here and there, landscapes and portraits alike. Logs burn in a fireplace on the wall ahead of us, a white wooden door on either side. On a shelf above the little pyre sit various items: an urn or vase (I cannot tell which) with painted flowers; the hilt of a sword, a bit of the broken blade still attached; a small velvet bag, fat and sitting upright with unknown contents giving it random misshapen bumps; a bit of cloth folded over twice; a stuffed bear, small and well-loved; and an empty glass with “In Case of Emergency” written elegantly on the label.

“Sit wherever, loves,” our host says, showing off the little tables. “I’ll get a special seat for the wee one.” 

She disappears through the left door, her footsteps silent on the wooden floor. Torvald claims the table nearest the front door, choosing the chair that would give him the quickest and easiest escape. I take the other, resting the princess on my knee. Out of instinct I didn’t know I had, it and she bounces.

“Horsey!” she giggles. I join in the infectious sound.

“This place seems alright,” Torvald says, looking around.

“Something you should know if you are to become a knight,” I tell him, my eyes still on the happy little girl, “is to always be on guard. You never know what will happen, what hideous secrets are just under the surface. Did you see her eyes? Product of unnatural magic. Keep your wits about you, boy. You’ll live longer.

“Tell me. You’ve traveled this road many times, yes?”

He takes a moment, counting on his fingers, then nods.

“Do you recall seeing this place before?” I ask.

Torvald thinks it over, retracing the courses from his many trips along the road. His eyebrows disappear behind the bangs of his blond bowl cut, a surprised confusion on his face.

“Didn’t think so,” I remark with a dark smirk.

The left door swings open, and the dwarf returns with a chair Evalina’s size. She sets the wooden thing down next to me; the little one could easily reach the table in this special seat.

“Do you mind?” she asks, looking from the princess to me. Despite the comfortable and homey aesthetic of this little eatery, those strange green eyes breed a mistrust.

“No, that’s okay,” I say, a courteous smile playing on my whiskered mouth. I lift the girl from my knee and settle her down in the high chair.

“So what can I get you?” she asks. There’s a glimmer of disappointment hidden under the cheery grin, a slight sadness in her eyes. They both seem to go away when her attention flicks away from me. Instead, she mainly focuses on Torvald.

“What all do you have?” the boy asks. I can nearly hear his stomach rumbling with the question.

“I have whatever you crave, dear,” she tells him. “Be it a potion to improve your abilities, a plate of bacon, or just somewhere to lay your head.” She leans in closer to him, a hand covering one side of her mouth as to whisper. “With or without company, but your father doesn’t need to know that tidbit.

“So what’ll it be?” she asks him, straightening up. “Perhaps a drink to start?”

“Water for the two of us,” I interject, motioning to Torvald and myself. “Milk for the girl, please.”

She looks to me in that moment, the pleasant aura surrounding her flickering for a blink. It turns sour, annoyed, aggravated. But the nice server returns just as quickly.

“Absolutely, sir,” she says, something new playing her smile now. Playful, wild, daring even. I have to admit, I kind of like it. “Would you perhaps like a special drink of mine? It’s called Hair o’ the Dog. Tastes like your favorite late-night beverage.”

“Perhaps another time,” I return the look before going to the little one. “Is there anything you particularly want to eat, honey?”

“Um,” she hesitates, thinking it over. An idea sparks wide eyes and an ecstatic smile. “Frobsta Fritchen!”

Evalina looks up to the dwarven woman, expectant glee glowing in her grin. Torvald and I wear confused curiosity. Our host, however, smiles back at the girl.

“Ooh, a classic Walterian breakfast!” she muses. “A wonderful choice, darling. Would you like me to cut them up for you?”

“Cut please!” Evalina, satisfied with the acceptance of her order and the additional request, wiggles in her seat. It seems like an uncoordinated little dance, and like with most other things she does, it lights a happiness in me.

“Can I get some bacon?” Torvald asks. 

“A few strips or a plateful?” she asks in return, turning her grin to him.

“A plateful, please,” he says with a brimming excitement in his eyes.

“You got it, sonny,” she winks. Those bright emeralds find me once more. “And for you?”

“You said you have whatever I crave?” I inquire with an raised eyebrow.

“I did.” Her dimples catch my eye. I hadn’t noticed them before. I like dimples.

“How about dragon meat? Or wyvern?” 

“Someone has dangerous taste buds,” she giggles. The others join in, and I give a huff of breath out of my nose. “What kind of dragon?”

“You have a variety?” I doubt her, glancing to the door she had come out of. “This place isn’t that big. Can’t have much room for all that stock.”

“Never underestimate a hostess, honey,” she quips.

“Bronze or blue,” I tell her. “But I prefer blue if you have it.”

“I oughta have some blue lying around,” she says with a slight nod. “How do you want it? Steak, rare?”

“Steak, yes. Medium rare, though. Don’t want it too bloody, if you don’t mind.”

“Of course,” she says, that hint of coy in her lips shining brighter. “Not squeamish, are ya, sir? Can’t imagine a man in armor like that faints at a bit o’ red.”

“No,” I chuckle, airy yet dark. “I’ve seen my fair share of the stuff. Don’t imagine my days with it are done. I’m just not big on digesting it.”

Evalina’s tiny hand reaches out and pats my gauntlet. My gaze goes to her, finding the scrunched blonde eyebrows and worried look.

“Potty,” she pleads.

“I thought you said you were all done,” I say, a little confused.

“Gotta potty!” she urges, a nervous little bounce overtaking her.

“I can take her,” the dwarf offers.

“That’s alright,” I say to her. “My boy will help her.”

On cue, Torvald gets to his feet and takes the princess in his arms as she reaches for him. 

“Right door, third on the left,” the woman tells him, giving him that pleasant smile. 

“Thank you, ma’am,” he says with a slight bow before rushing off through the door on the right of the fireplace.

Yet, she does not move. She watches the two of them leave the room, and then focuses back on me. The mask of charm dissipates until there is only a formidable glower in her fixation. After another moment, she holds a hand out to her side and summons an unused chair to her. She sits, crossing her short legs and folding her hands in her lap.

“Is this the part where you reveal you’re not actually going to prepare breakfast for us?” I ask, doing my best to hide my intrigue. “Because she really needs some… whatever she called it.”

“What are you doing here, Paladin?” she demands, the uncanny near-glow intensifying with her question. 

“The sign suggested you had food,” I answer.

“Where are you headed?” she asks. It is unclear whether or not she accepts my words as truth, or if she is simply brushing past the subject.

“Home, eventually.”

“Who is the girl?” The question comes after a brief silence, her eyes narrowing and glowing brighter still. 

“Are we playing a game of questions?” I ask, crossing my arms over my chest. “If so, I’m owed two questions now.”

“Who is she?” she presses, leaning closer. Heat fills her words.

“Are we going to get to have our breakfast or not? Shouldn’t you get to work on it?” A smirk cracks across my lips at her growing irritation. Perhaps it will become too much for her to bear and she will feel compelled to punish me. Sweet Lavender would get to play, then.

“My boys are working on it already,” she huffs, relaxing into the back of the chair. She blinks and looks away, mindlessly gazing upon one of the paintings. I don’t follow her gaze, vigilant in case of attack. 

“She’s so captivating,” she breathes, almost with a taste of sorrow. The flame in her has subsided. At least, for now. 

“Who is?” I dare to ask in the settling quiet.

“The child,” she says, those greens meeting my blues once more. “You’ve already had someone come for her, haven’t you?”

“Why would anyone try to take her?” 

My hesitation gives away too much. The corner of her mouth stretches as she looks away again, tapping her crossed foot against the air in a slow rhythm. Thoughts race beneath her auburn braids, but I cannot decipher them. Pulling from the shallow wells of magic in me, I reach out with my mind to see into hers. A block is in place, whether by nature or her design I do not know. My lungs protest the attempt as it draws out the air within; I draw in a heavy breath to compensate for the theft. It is difficult to tell whether or not the dwarf noticed; her attention, I’m guessing, is still on Evalina.

“What are you?” I finally ask, quelling my curiosity and snuffing the silence.

“The eyes don’t give it away?” she responds, the playfulness returning.

“Wrong color for a necromancer,” I postulate. “Definitely not a demon of any kind, far as I can tell. Is it just an illusion, perhaps?”

“Would’ve gone with a much more ordinary color had I any control over it,” she confesses, her smile returning as her other corner rises.

“What is it then?”

“For you, an enigma.”

A door opens behind her. Out from the left-hand door emerges two beings, lean muscles stretching over tall frames. Surely they would stand a foot taller than me, at the very least. They make the dwarf look like a toddler in comparison, much like the princess and myself. Raggedy pants and sleeveless shirts made of brown cloth cover their flesh; one’s skin is alabaster, the other obsidian. They approach, barefoot, each carrying a tray of full plates. They appear to be some breed of elf with their long pointed ears and elegant facial features. Almost as if they had been carved from stone by a master artist. The gargoyles guarding the front door come to mind as they set out the plates. 

“Thank you, Eaf,” the dwarf says to the darker one. “Thank you, M’rak,” she addresses the other. They bow to her in tandem and retreat through the door from whence they came, silent as statues.

“Interesting company you keep,” I think aloud. 

 The steak, a perfect caramelized brown, still sizzles before me. The scent alone tingles my nose, and my mouth waters. Torvald’s plate has been made the base for a mighty mountain of crispy bacon, and for a moment I wonder if the hungry boy would allow a strip or two to defect from the pile and take up a temporary residence with my bit of dragon. Maybe the princess would want some too. Her meal, while cut in clean squares, seems to be composed of three thin golden cakes topped with colorful syrup-covered fruits. Mostly red strawberries, matching the hue of the sugary sticky substance, there are various berries thrown in as well.

“They help out around the place,” she shrugs the comment off. “Their magic is limited, but I’ll take what I can get. Makes cleaning up after guests a lot quicker, thank the Novhina.”

She breathes out a short chuckle, looking around at the place. My eyes stay on her. Can’t take any chances.

“Speaking of which,” I say, trying to garner her attention, “for a magic user, I have yet to see any symbols of your deity. Most shopkeepers and restaurateurs I’ve come across will display a shrine or an emblem. Where’s yours?”

“Hidden in my personal quarters,” she answers after a moment of hesitation. The grin holds, but its flavor goes sour again. “I’m not one to advertise any god. They can obtain followers the old fashioned way. Always seemed to work.”

“Hidden, huh?” An airy chuckle of my own accompanies the curious arched eyebrow. “Most things that are hidden and done so in shame or fear of being found. To whom do you pray?”

“Oh, are you wanting to convert me?” she laughs, full and hearty. “I am fine with mine, thank you. Besides, I’m pretty sure yours wouldn’t want my kind anyway.”

“The Mother of the World accepts all,” I tell her, smug. “Even dwarves.”

“No, Madam Skrolba certainly would not want me,” she argues with a forced smile. “Our divine friends don’t play well together.”

“Ah, I see.” A slow, knowing nod leads to my hand preparing to draw out Lavender. “And what keeps me from sending you to Scommortod?”

“You won’t,” she says, carefree. She rises, letting the feet of her chair drag on the wood as she takes it back to its proper table.

“So sure of that, are you?” I ask as Lavender begins to beg.

“I am.” The answer comes quick, light, without a trace of worry. “Because I have no intention to send you to Skrolba. I only wish to give you and your children a good meal so you may continue on your way. They’ll be back in a moment, by the way, so best keep your blade in its place. No need for them to see any more violence.

“Besides,” she adds, “my boys would not have let you come so close if they felt you were untrustworthy or malicious. You wouldn’t have even spotted the building.”

“What do you mean?” I inquire, loosening my grip. “My boy has been up and down this road and never seen you before. Are you saying he holds ill will?”

“Him? Of course not. He’s harmless.” For once, I agree with her. “Staying in one place has never suited me well.”

Her eyes dart to the door on the right of the fireplace. She makes her way to the left door. As soon as she passes through, Torvald and Evalina return. He sets her down in her chair, and then takes his own. His eyes grow wide at the sight of the great bacon summit. The princess squeals and claps her hands at her Frobsta Fritchen. They both then dig in, the little one utilizing the fork next to her plate. Torvald wiggles a strip of bacon in front of her, and she attempts a “please” through the mouthful of cake and fruit. He sets it down on the edge of her plate, which she grabs immediately and devours. 

The steak waits for me, ready. Taking my own utensils, I cut into the meat. The knife slides through with ease, separating chunks and revealing a mostly red center. Poking a small square of the steak with my fork, I raise the bit to my mouth. As it nears my mouth, the wild electric tingle tickles my lips. Chewy, warm, and juicy, it fills my mouth with a mild shock that trickles through my teeth and down my throat. Most blue dragon steaks cannot reach this perfection, yet the dwarf’s does. Exquisite.

Her door swings open again, and she reappears with a tray of cups. She sets one down for the three of us, and then tucks the tray under her arm.

“How is it so far?” she asks, looking between the two younger ones.

“It’s pretty scrumptious,” Torvald says once he has swallowed a swig of water.

“Obthta Ithch!” Evalina kicks her feet in joy.

“Wonderful,” the dwarf says with a gleeful grin. It remains as she turns to me. “And you, sir?”

“Best damn blue dragon I’ve ever had.” The genuine compliment lights up her face. How strange, yet heartwarming it is to see a necromancer smile.

“Thank you, kind sir,” she says, containing her elation. “Well, I’ll leave you lot to it. If you need anything, just yell.” There’s a slight skip to her step as she returns to the back.

The meal passes, wordless yet satisfying. Torvald throws a couple strips of bacon my way, and I pass him a cut of the steak. The little charge of lightning he finds on his tongue rattles him for a second, but he approves of it. Evalina, on the other hand, spits out the tiny piece I give her. She allows me a small bite of her meal in a sweet gesture, and I make a mental note to request it if I ever find myself in Walteria after all this. Torvald enjoys his little offering as well, likely thinking the same thing. Soon enough, our plates are empty, our cups drained, and our bellies full.

“Uppy, please,” the princess requests, stretching her arms out to me. I oblige and take her into my lap as the dwarf returns.

“Need anything else, my dears?” she asks, stacking the empty plates and cups. 

Torvald relaxes into the back of his chair, his hands resting on his gut, and shakes his head. I offer a simple “No thank you” and look to the little one. Her eyes are glued to something; at first I think it’s the woman. Following her gaze, it leads to the shelf above the still crackling fireplace. Of all the objects sitting there, I imagine I could guess which has caught her attention. The thought, though, of her wielding the broken blade and saving us all from imaginary monsters warms my heart. Instead, she points to the bear.

“Prize! Prize!” she exclaims. “Want prize!”

The woman looks from the girl to the bear to me. A puzzled yet humored smirk on her mouth, she asks with her eyes.

“We were playing a game on the road,” I explain with a light little laugh. “She won, and I kind of promised her a prize whenever we stopped. I had forgotten, but I guess someone else didn’t.”

“Prize, please,” Evalina says to the dwarf, a big goofy and toothy smile plastered between her rosy pinchable cheeks. 

The dwarf returns the look with a sweet smile of her own. She holds out a hand, eyes still on the girl, and the bear drifts midair toward her. She catches it without looking, cradling it like a baby. Her eyes break for a moment, going to the stuffed animal. Its fur, a rich brown, has a few sewn areas likely due to old tears. Its stomach is fat with stuffing, as are its round paws. Dark marbles make its eyes, watching endlessly and unblinking. Two half circles rest atop its head, perfect ears. She strokes its face, pure love pouring into the little soft toy. If I didn’t know better, its small stitched smile seems to be from her touch. Soon, she looks to the princess again. She kneels before her, and to a lesser extent me. Within her emeralds glimmers an ocean.

“Sweetheart,” she says soft, sweet. “This is Borso.”

“Hi,” Evalina says, waving her tiny hand at the bear. The dwarf waves a rounded nub, which is meant to be its paw, back.

“Borso has been my best friend for a very long time,” she continues. “My papa gave him to me when I was your age. But lately he’s just been sitting on that shelf. I think he’s been waiting for a little girl like you to come around. Would you like to be his new friend?”

“Please!” the princess squeals, bouncing on my thigh. “Borso friend!”

“Okay,” the dwarf says. 

The ocean roars, making itself big and tall as it crashes on the shore. Two streams race on the beach. Sentiment, rooted deep, makes it difficult for the dwarf to hand over the bear. But she does. Evalina takes it in her arms, giving it a gentle but loving hug. The dwarf’s heart breaks in the best way, sending another round of tears down her face.

“Something you should know, little one,” she says, wiping away the wet. “Borso is a needy bear. He likes cuddles at least three times a day, and absolutely adores going on adventures. Do you think you can handle that?”

“Uh huh,” the girl promises, not letting the bear out of the hug.

“Good,” her voice quivers on the word. A hand, weathered yet soft, reaches out and strokes the little one’s cheek. “You take care of him, and he’ll protect you from scary monsters and mean people.” 

“Tank too!” Evalina coos in joy, leaping from my lap and into the dwarf’s arms. The latter, overcome by the surprising jubilant embrace, lets more tears escape. 

“You’re welcome, love,” she says, giving her a tender kiss on the cheek. She finally pulls back, setting her back into my lap. 

“You be good, sir,” the dwarf says to the bear. Part of me thinks she’s just being silly for the girl’s sake, but there’s a strange genuineness. Evalina makes him nod, and the dwarf’s heart just about breaks again.

“You’ve been quite generous,” my words distract her. “What do I owe you? I have coin.”

“No,” she laughs, a soft sound. “This princess’s happiness is more than enough.”

My heart jumps in my chest. Does she know? Has she guessed the secret? Or has she been stringing us along throughout our stay, waiting until we finished eating for the sleeping draught to kick in so she could swoop in and steal the girl? If not an elixir to render us all unconscious, perhaps a poison meant to bring us within the clasp of death. Or, worst of all, perhaps she intends to kill the boy and me and raise the princess as her own little abomination. 

The thought boils in me, but it remains just that: a thought. There is a sincerity to her, an absence of malice or greed, a goodness. How odd for a necromancer, how perplexing. For what purpose then does she use her magic? Though she may have trained in that dark art, who’s to say she even practices such evil anymore? Perhaps she has been reformed. For her sake, I hope so.

“Well, you lot be safe on the roads,” she goes on, rising to her feet and stepping away. “Feel free to come back at any time. Borso will help you find me again if you so desire.”

Torvald and I leave the table, Evalina in my arms and fascinated by her new friend. The front door closes behind me, and in my head I can almost hear the two little gargoyles bid us farewell. The macabre ambience of the exterior remains unchanged, despite witnessing the pleasantness within. A spell, perhaps, for warding off fools. Strange, then, that Torvald had spotted it. Maybe it was like the dwarf had said: only those who bear no ill-will can see the place. Clever.

“Such a nice place,” Torvald says, climbing up to his seat. “How does she make the outside so unlike the inside?”

“Illusional magic can work wonders in the right hands,” I answer, setting the girl in the carriage. “Find the right wizard and you can look however you want. Or so I’ve heard.”

As I get comfortable in my spot, the idea of the dwarf putting something in our food comes back. Evalina cuddles Borso on her side of the carriage, slipping into a nap shortly after we resume our journey. My own eyelids grow heavy. A rare concern for Torvald comes to life in my head. Every part of me wants to call out to the boy, make sure he is unaffected by this uncanny onset of fatigue.

Yet…

Continue to Chapters Ten and Eleven

Rokkoh and the Princess, Chapter 8

Birds sing in the garden. The sun shines spectacular. The grass is soft under my bare feet. The breeze like the caress of a sweet kiss covers my unashamed exposed skin. Again, she sits at the little river. She has brown skin now, naked, kneeling at the water. But the scars on her back are too familiar. The lines of variant size and degree that mar the otherwise gorgeous skin remind me of my own. All rebellious and unruly tenants in the Tower of Lost Children were bequeathed such markings. I could recount the offense for each of these particular ones as if they were my own. Ours were often earned together, most of the stories one and the same. Though they are rarely on display, I recognize that they belong to Kym.

Her name escapes me as I draw near, kneeling next to her. Her face is hidden by her dark hair, but she looks down at her hands. She turns a golden circle over and over, her hands covered in red and staining the metal. All around, short spikes hold emeralds that have lost their shine. One by one, she plucks out the gems and tosses them into the brook. Soon, the crown loses its last jewel, yet Kym continues to fiddle with the thing. I say her name again, soft and loving and wanting. Her head snaps, her black hair skirting as her eyes meet mine. Her face, from hairline to chin, drips with blood. Fire razes cities in those dark eyes. I stretch out a hand to hold her face, hoping to calm the vengeance in her. The crown breaks in her fingers, the little pieces tinkling together as they hit the ground. The sound echoes through the meadow and grows loud until it is all I can hear. 

There is no way to tell the time of day when my eyes open to the Jerl. Torvald is on his feet, staring at something on the wall. Evalina sits up, looking at it too. For a moment, I’m certain the ringing is the broken crown from my dream. But, in the low light, some tiny thing shines next to the ladder.

The bell.

Dammit.

“Up the ladder,” I order, jumping off the bed. 

For a moment, Torvald doesn’t move. When I repeat myself, louder and rougher, he obeys. I crack open the door, finding nothing and no one waiting in the hallway. Closing the door with a silent click of the lock, I scoop up the princess and head up and out. To our luck, our carriage waits for us in the bright morning sun. Torvald takes the reins and, once the princess and I are safe inside the carriage, gets us moving westward. As we leave Red Bear behind, my thoughts go to the goblin of the Ursa Lodge. I pray a protection for him and hope it does not arrive too late.

“Rokkoh?” her little voice comes in the settling calm. 

“What is it, little one?” I smile to her.

“Potty,” she answers with a blooming frown.

“Oh.” I am at a loss for words. For some reason, I had overlooked such a simple necessity. If the boy or myself needed to go, we could just pull over and take care of our business. But with her being so young, we’re lucky she could even ask.

“Pull over,” I command, poking my head out the door so Torvald can for sure hear me. He obeys, slowing us to a stop. I step out, guiding Evalina into the brush.

“Do you need any help or anything?” I ask, awkward. 

“No, tank too,” she says, minding her manners despite her little still-learning impediment. She steps into the shrubbery, her little footsteps politely asking the tall wild plants to let her pass through. 

Movement stops for a while, and then picks up to the east. It starts, stops, starts again. Erratic, unnatural, unlike any animal I have ever encountered. Through the dense tall trees, I cannot see the shape of what moves. With a hand ready to let Lavender breathe again, I enter the green. I move toward the uneven steps, careful of my own footfalls as to not betray my presence. They move, I move. They stop, I stop. All the while, I keep an ear out for the princess. She has not moved for quite some time, and a new worry fills me. Could someone have gotten to her? Did she find a bush of poisonous berries and eat a handful?

“Hi!” she beams up to me. The knot in my gut loosens; from what I can tell, she is unharmed and there are no berry juice stains on her tiny hands.

“Hey there, little one,” I smile back to her. “All done?”

“Yeah,” she nods, her bow bouncing again. She raises her arms to me. “Hungry, please.”

“We’ll get you something to eat,” I promise, picking her up. “Any requests?”

“Umm,” she thinks as we head out of the woods. “Brekky!”

“Brekky it is,” I chuckle. She offers a little giggle, and my heart melts. We cross the edge of the trees and rejoin Torvald. I get the princess settled back into the carriage and circle back.

“No trouble, I take it?” he says, climbing back to his seat.

“No trouble,” I tell him, watching the silent trees. “Stop at the first inn or town we come across. She needs food.”

“Oh, maybe some place that has bacon, or hotcakes?” Torvald suggests as he, either consciously or otherwise, rubs his gut. “Or both!”

“Better get us there fast,” I crack a grin at him. “You’re making me hungry.”

Something shines in his eyes, his own smile spreads a little wider on his face, but he does his best to muffle it as soon as it comes. I could be wrong, but it could have been a glint of happiness, or some sort of satisfaction. Making a mental note to hold back at giving him a smirk, I climb back into the carriage. We take off before the door closes.

Continue to Chapter Nine

The Cross Chronicles, random excerpt

Hey there friends! I’m currently in a hotel, and it made me think back to this piece I wrote a few years back for my supernatural series The Cross Chronicles. I currently have no idea when the following excerpt will be used, but this scene was in my head and wasn’t going to stop knocking until it had been written. A simplified backstory: Daniel Cross is a vampire, and Amory hunts vampires. Enjoy!

The sun had not yet risen when something woke Daniel. A presence, it seemed. Within the darkness of the room, he found the silhouette of a man sitting at the foot of the bed. The figure sat with his elbows on his knees, he face toward the carpet floor. Amory sat there, his hunched form almost making him look defeated. Something dangled in his fingers; the smell of cheap booze soon crept into Daniel’s nose.

Though Daniel did not move, or at least he swore he hadn’t, Amory spoke to him: “Sorry, didn’t mean to wake ya.”

That confidence, that smugness was nearly evaporated. The human seemed odd without it, not himself. Daniel remained silent, unsure what to make of any of it. He wondered, for a moment, how his enemy had even found him after so many months of going from place to place. Even more puzzling was how the hunter had infiltrated the vampire’s hotel room; the light and cool breeze coming from the open glass door that led to the balcony was the dead giveaway as soon as the thought entered Daniel’s mind.

Maybe he’s here to finally kill me, he thought. Surprised he waited til I woke up. Guess he wanted to be the last thing I saw before I bit the bullet.

“Do you believe in God, Dan?” Amory asked, almost like a friend. Even the way he addressed the vampire, so casual and effortless that the latter forgot for the slightest of moments that the two of them had tried to kill each other multiple times.

“As a kid, sure,” Daniel answered, soft and cautious. If the hunter had come to kill, it would have been over by now. “Nowadays I’m not so sure.”

“Me neither,” the human admitted. “My folks used to drill all that religious crap into my head. Used to claim that our work was meant to glorify good ole JC and his pop. Purify the world of the dark Satanic creatures like yourself. But the work never stops. Never. My old man died from it. Made an example out of my brother to never be too cocky. Can you imagine that? A dumb son of a bitch with a bigger ego than me? Fucker thought he was hot shit when Dad was training him. And then look at what happens! Gets his head torn off like it’s the cap to a fuckin pen! Damnedest thing I ever saw. And then seeing that closed casket, knowing that all that’s left of him is a loosely-stitched neck and a cautionary tale.

“And then God decides that my mom, who never even held a gun in her entire life, she has to die at the hands of a fanger too. But He’s not done there, because I’m not allowed to leave all the killing behind no matter how fuckin hard I try.”

His voice quivered, a cocktail of melancholy and rage. His fingers tightened around the glass bottle. Ever so gently, he rocked back and forth.

“A beautiful woman whose only crime was falling in love with an indoctrinated asshole like me, she has to pay too. And a little boy…”

His voice cracked. In the darkness, Daniel swore he saw tears glimmer in Amory’s eyes.

“I don’t wanna believe in any god who would do that to an innocent child,” the human said. “Even you have better morality than that.”

The two were silent for a long moment before Amory’s arm reached out, the bottle in his hand.

“Want some?” he offered. Daniel could sense no ill intent, but declined regardless. Amory simply shrugged and took a swig for himself.

“It’s just rum, in case you were wondering,” Amory said. “Nothing in it you can’t handle.”

“Thanks,” Daniel replied with more than a hint of wariness. “But still, I’m not much of a rum fan.”

Amory nodded, mostly to whatever thought ran through his head. “Yeah, makes sense,” he sighed. He got to his feet shortly after, making his way back to the balcony.

“Dumb question,” Daniel spoke up as Amory reached the glass door. The human stopped. “Any reason why you tracked me down and broke into my hotel room?”

“Well,” Amory smirked, turning back to the vampire, “I’d originally had the idea to kill you in your sleep. But you looked too peaceful in Dreamland. Anyone ever tell you that? So it didn’t feel right. Reminded me of someone.”

“Oh,” was all Daniel could muster. Amory stepped out into the night.

“Hocked the rum from your room’s fridge, by the way,” the human added, poking his head back in. That usual smug smirk lit up his face, a familiar annoyance. As Amory left, this time for good, Daniel suppressed the urge to run outside and snag the bottle. He opted to lock the balcony door and go back to sleep instead.

Rokkoh and the Princess, Chapter 7

We don’t stay moving for too long; Torvald stops again minutes later. He whispers a “We’re here,” as he opens the door. With hands like cotton I lift the princess into my arms. She fusses in her slumber only for a moment, but relaxes back into me in the same moment. Outside, on the dim-lit road, Torvald tends to the horse. A sign made of weathered wood hangs from a post in front of a building with lit windows. Carved deep into it, the sign shows the image of a roaring bear. Its snarling lips pulled back to reveal long and exaggerated teeth, its brow furrowed in seething anger, its eyes painted a blood red; there is no doubt of where we are.

The Ursa Lodge’s common area is small and deserted, but the hearth still holds a fire. A counter sits at the far side of the room, and beyond it a door. Between the two, nose deep in a book, is a being of pale green skin, long and pointed ears that curve down under the burden of old age, and a frail frame. It looks like it wouldn’t stand taller than my waist. As I approach the counter, its bald head rises to meet me with tired yellow eyes.

“Good evening,” it says through crooked or otherwise missing teeth. “Welcome to the Ursa Lodge. How many?”

“Three,” I answer. “I’m looking for Jerl.”

Recognition shines in its goblin eyes for a moment. It sets down the book and hops off its little stool.

“Ah, then this must be the princess,” it says, rounding the corner of the counter. “Is she alright? Heard all the yelling out there.”

“She’s fine, still sleeping,” I say, not letting the little green thing get any closer to her. “Bandits blocked the bridge.”

“Bandits?” it chuckles, turning back around when it realizes it won’t get to lay a finger on the princess. It returns to the counter, pulling open a drawer of metal things and digging through it. “That would be a lot easier, wouldn’t it?”

“What do you mean?” I ask, peering over the countertop and into the drawer. 

“I mean,” it slams the drawer shut hard, an old and rusted key ring in between its fingers, “those weren’t fucking bandits.”

“And if they weren’t bandits, who were they?” I follow as the goblin heads toward the door, using one of the keys to unlock it. “Why were they after the princess?”

“So many stupid questions,” it groans. “You’d think the queen would have hired someone with half a brain instead of just a beefcake.”

“Hey,” I snarl, taking it by its collar and raising its light body into the air. “Watch your mouth, goblin, or you’ll be choking on your teeth.” The fabric releases from my grip; to my disappointment, the thing lands on its feet. 

“I need to see Jerl,” I demand. 

“And what do you think I’m doing?” it glares up at me, showing off its grimy teeth and black gums. “Leading you to a picnic? Just shut up and follow me.”

With a huff, I obey. It leads me down the hallway, closed doors on either side. At the end of the hall is the backdoor and a downward staircase. We head down, following the spiral stone staircase until we get to the door at the bottom. Once unlocked with another key from the old ring, we enter another hallway. It’s darker down here, fewer torches lining the walls. Although I have no reason to distrust this little beast, I keep Lavender ready in my hand. Open archways reveals an assortment of barrels and crates full of stock for the kitchens to keep guests happy and fed. We pass three such rooms, finally stopping at the only door. The key bends in the lock, but it holds together. Inside is a small room, smaller than the common area up above. The stone walls keep what I hope are creeping vines in their cracks. A lone candle sits on the wall opposite the door, which the goblins lights with a snap of his boney fingers. A mattress, surprisingly clean, takes up half of the room. On the wall to our left is a ladder. A square of rock has been cut out next to the ladder, a tiny bronze bell hovering there. The room is otherwise unimpressive.

“Where is Jerl?” I ask. “Is he meeting us here?”

This,” the goblin says, showing off the small space, “is Jerl. It’s an old relic of a word from forgotten times. Means ‘safehouse’ or something like that. I know it doesn’t look like much, but you won’t find a better one-night hideout in town. If anyone comes lookin for you or the little one, I’ve rigged a line that will ring this pretty little bell.” A little green finger with a sharpened fingernail points to the bell in the wall. “You hear that go off, take the ladder up into the alley. If your boy is smart, that’s where he hitched your buggy for the night. I’ll be sure to give him the spiel. You get some rest, big guy.”

He pats my back, or what he can reach of it, on his way out. The door closes behind him, leaving Evalina and me in the dim light of the solitary candle. I set her down on the mattress, and for a brief second I worry that her slumber has slipped into something more permanent. However, she still breathes and sucks on the pacifier, so I let go of my paranoia. I slide onto the bed, nestled against the wall, and let the princess take as much room as her little self is able. She gets a whole pillow to herself, and I take the other. Almost as soon as I relax into the softness, sleep embraces me. Brief, at first; I wake up momentarily when a figure curls up at the foot of the bed, but seeing Torvald puts me at ease and I sink right back in.

Continue to Chapter Eight

Rokkoh and the Princess, Chapter 6

The ride goes silent for a long time, and I refuse to slip back into sleep. My eyes grow heavier with every passing minute. With every little bump in the dirt road I wake up for the briefest second, but then fall back into my bout with the charming mistress. Closer and closer I edge towards the temptation. The inevitability grows stronger and bigger with every rise and fall of my breath. My eyelids flutter in their final push to keep sleep at bay. They are pinned down, struggling against what my body demands. 

“Sir Rokkoh,” he whimpers through the wood. Torvald has stopped once more.

“What, boy?” The sleepiness takes hold of my voice now, slowing and slurring my words.

“There’s something on the bridge.”

My eyes snap open and I exit the carriage once more. The moon shines brighter here, reflecting off the water of the Red Bear River. A shape blocks the bridge midway through: tall, wide, seemingly alone. Bigger than me, no doubt. I squint, trying to make out details, but it’s too far away. Beyond it, the buildings of Red Bear rubberneck.

“Surrender the girl,” a rough, deep voice booms from the bridge. 

“What is it?” Torvald asks, his fear as plain as day.

With slow steps, I approach where the bridge meets the road. I stand at the edge, examining the figure closer. Broad shoulders, long and thick limbs, bulky frame, hair pulled into a knot at the top of its head, a warhammer clutched in huge hands.

“Grant us passage, half giant,” I call to it. “The closest we have to a girl is my chauffeur. You don’t want him.”

“You cannot lie to me, human,” he growls. “I can smell her from here.”

“Creepy,” I comment. “Even if we had a girl with us, what makes you think we would hand her over?”

Shadows rise from the riverbank on the far side of the bridge, half a dozen in total. Even from this distance, they look smaller than the half giant. Like their leader, their weapons are drawn and ready to fight.

“We can be civil,” the half giant says. “Blood does not need to be shed this night. Just give us the girl. We will escort her home.”

Drawing in a deep breath, I kneel and close my eyes. One hand presses into the dirt of the road, my fingers spreading wide and digging in. They close and bring a handful of the earth above my head. I hold it there for a moment, ancient words escaping my lips. My grip loosens, dirt falling around my bald scalp. 

Bengnic min lamga, mussat seut pleindam indeci Baltevmt,” the words repeat until my hand is empty. A warmth courses through me, invigorating and divine. Rising to my feet once more, Lavender reveals herself. A golden aura surrounds her, brilliant in the surrounding dark.

“Bloodshed it shall be,” comes the concession, accompanied by a wicked grin.

I launch into a sprint, kicking up dirt as I go from my starting point on the road to the bricks of the bridge. Lavender requires both hands; I hold her upright and ready. The half giant accepts the challenge and begins his stride. His underlings at the river hold their ground. As we grow near, the half giant’s scowling white warpaint becomes clear. The sight would instill a flicker of fear in weaker men, of this I am certain. Torvald for sure. I imagine it kept several matters “civil” in the past for him. Maybe that’s how he even gained some of his cohorts.

I have never been much of a weak man.

Lavender sings in the night. The golden aura, lapping like heatless flames, extends itself to my charging frame. Pushing off the brick of the bridge, I soar. Lavender finds the half giant, the gold sparking as it gives a lover’s kiss to his neck. I roll with my landing, stopping on one knee. The aura retracts from my body and dissipates. The half giant’s body thuds, the warhammer clanging and the head rolling. 

Skrolba’s warmth leaves me, replaced by a sickening chill. I waiver in my spot, breathless and fatigued, but manage to rise to my feet. The half dozen bandits wait and watch, unmoving from their positions.

“Who of you would stand against me?” I muster what little strength I have left to challenge them. Their dark figures hesitate, looking to each other for a volunteer. One by one, they descend back down into the weeds.

Lavender returns to her sheath as I turn and flag down Torvald. Back to the headless bastard, I heave his corpse onto the barricade. It takes all I have to get him there, and while I give him one final push into the Red Bear River my lungs beg for air and rest. My body goes heavy; I lean against the barricade, letting it hold me while Torvald approaches. Muscles shaking and sweat glistening on my skin, I pull in what air I can. The boy can’t see me so fragile. No one can. If anyone knew the cost of divine power…

“Such mastery, Sir Rokkoh!” Torvald exclaims as he draws near. He stops, the carriage door right in front of me. “You took his head clean off with one righteous swing! Incredible!”

“Shut up and get us to the Ursa Lodge,” I order, collapsing onto the seat. The princess sleeps. Good.

Continue to Chapter Seven

003 Scatterbrain

The brain never stops working. There’s always a song or a memory or a thought running through it. For those with an inkling toward the creative, this is doubly so. For me in particular, unless I’m focused on something more imperative like my job or ice cream, my mind tends to drift toward my characters, their stories, and how to craft the next line. This can be a double-edged sword, though, when I start to think of projects other than what I’m trying to actively work on. On some days, I’ll even wander away from my current path and take a side trail of a different project. Sometimes, it’s a matter of choosing what to work on. When it comes to making that decision, I’ve discovered a few ways to help the selection process:

  • I like to play Dungeons & Dragons, so naturally I have some dice. (More like a hoard since I’m a bit of a dice goblin, but we’ll overlook that for now.) One of the simplest ways to make a decision is to roll for it. Make a numbered list of the projects you want to work on, pick a corresponding die, and roll. 
  • Even more simple than dice: a coin. This is good if you’ve already eliminated all but a few options. Flip the coin and you’re good to go.
  • Consult the Elder Council of Choices for their input/opinion.
  • If you have an old fashioned dart board, write down your list of projects on little slips of paper. Hang them up on the board, and whichever ones the darts land on are your options. Repeat until you’ve narrowed the list down to the winner.
  • Keeping with the idea of writing down the options, put them in a hat and draw.
  • This one is the most complicated, but the reward is worth the risk. First, you need an uncooked pizza. It can be frozen, take-and-bake, or homemade. All that matters is that YOU are the one who cooks it, so no Pizza Hut or Domino’s. While it cooks, set your table for two. Once this is done, clean the ceremonial dagger you keep hidden under your bed. (This should be the same one you use when making a human sacrifice to defeat procrastination.) Before the pizza is finished, bring out one of the sacrifices you were saving for later. As soon as the pizza is out of the oven, slay your sacrifice with the dagger. Whilst doing this, use the Dark Speech to summon a demon. (If you’re lucky, you might get Satan himself.) Share the pizza with what/whoever appears, and they will reveal what you should work on for the day.

Follow any of these steps and you’ll be working on your project in no time! If you stumble into the trap of procrastination, check out my previous blog entry for how to overcome it.

Rokkoh and The Princess, Chapters 4 and 5

A figure meets me there, womanly and cloaked in light. She kneels at a brook and lets her fingers play in the shallow water, tickling a small orange fish. A simple smile spreads on her face and reveals her dimples. Flowers of innumerable colors line the edges of the brook and stretch through the grass, even sprouting at the feet of leviathan trees.

“Hello, child,” she says, pleasant and welcoming, as I sit next to her.

“Hello, All-Mother.”

Her form changes every time I glance away or blink. At first, she wears alabaster skin, then mahogany, then tan. Her face changes too, her hair, her eyes. But that smile, enviable serenity, stays the same.

“It’s such a peaceful day,” she muses. “I wish all days could be like this.”

“Are they not here?” I ask. Sitting in my rags next to her gorgeous yet ever-changing glorious form, inadequacy overcomes me. In this beautiful landscape, I do not fit. A peasant among royalty. A rat among stallions. A weed among roses.

“Sometimes to protect life, one must destroy life,” she answers in typical cryptic fashion. While she is the only deity I have ever communed with, I can only imagine they all speak in such riddles.

The fish between her fingers swims away, following the stream to wherever it leads. I have never seen much of this place, only what Skrolba has ever chosen to show me. This spot by the brook is one of her favorites. There is also a shore somewhere she takes me on occasion. Most places we meet are near the water.

“Protect her,” she says, distant. The smile is still there but she is a million miles away. Her eyes, now a violent violet, flash from where the dark brown fingers rest motionless in the water to me. Her other hand rises and cradles the side of my face. Warm, invigorating, divine.

“Protect her,” she repeats, present, grave, and terrifying. Her whole being becomes a blinding light; I shield my eyes from her brilliance. When I open them again, I am alone with only her handprint on my cheek.

The sudden slam against the carriage knocks me out of my reverie. Torvald’s fearful screech as the carriage rocks back onto all four wheels wakes me up. The little princess, bundled up in her blankets, remains asleep. Silence overtakes the road. The nocturnal birds close their beaks. The little furry creatures cease their chittering. Our driver does not even whimper now. The world goes quiet, yet we do not move. We remain still on the road, dead in our tracks.

Dead. Hm.

Taking hold of Lavender in one hand and opening the carriage door with the other, I enter the night. The road is illuminated by the moon, but nothing else. The air is stagnant, the little flowers at the edge of the dirty too scared to fragrance the air with their sweetness. The trees are dark statues; their leaves and branches freeze in motion. Within the shadows of the forest, I expect the glint of an eye or two, but there is only the pure terrifying silent black. 

The wood of the carriage exterior bears a dent the size of my head. Had it hit a few inches back, it would have shattered the little window on the door. There’s no blood, no fur, no feathers. Nothing on the ground. No evidence of attack except for the dent. No footprints in the dirt, either. Had to have been something heavy, too, with how hard it hit. But there’s nothing here, nothing but the point of impact itself. 

Every footstep is a firing cannon in the smothering silence. A sliver of my blade breathes in the sill air as I approach the front of the carriage, ready to reveal Lavender in full to slay our mysterious assailant. Torvald, back straight as he sits at the reins, locks his eyes forward. The blond hair on his chin quivers, the ends tickling the ebony dagger held at his throat. A crimson groove runs down the middle of the metal, the blade itself curving back toward the one wielding it. A gloved hand holds the sharp thing to the driver’s pallid sweating flesh, dark leather with almost invisible stitching. The cuff disappears into the tight arms of the coat, looking as if they are one piece. The back runs long, draping down past the crouching frame. The half-dozen buckles on the front glisten amongst the surrounding pitch leather. Under the black hood, the face is covered. Only eyes show, the color lost. Some skin shines through: a rich brown. The soles of the booths are thick, adding a few inches to her height. 

Lavender remains in her sheath, and I let her go to cross my arms over my chest. My mouth splits into a grin.

“Took you long enough,” her voice comes from under the cloth mask concealing her lips. But there’s a smile. Small and coy, but it’s there. I can even see it in her dark eyes as they flit from Torvald to me.

“I was sleeping,” I answer.

She rises to her full height. Her blade disappears into a hidden place under her coat. With an easy step she descends from the carriage, little dust clouds forming and settling back down at her feet. Even with the help of her boots, she stands a foot shorter than me. Those dark eyes drink in my image, slow steps circling around my frame and reappearing in her landing spot. Her eyes find mine again, twinkling like stars in the night sky. She rests her hood back, removes the mask that hides all but her pretty eyes, and lets that bright little smile gleam. 

“A knight of Oakwing, huh?” she muses. “They let any riffraff into their club nowadays.”

“Paladin, actually,” I correct her. My thumb slides under the tiny silver chain around my neck and reveals the pendant hidden under my armor. Molded into the gold circle is the shape of a faceless woman, hair flowing and arms outstretched. “Praise be to the All-Mother and whatnot.”

“A knight with religion, then?” A laugh escapes her, the little cockeyed grin spreading to reveal straight, pearly teeth. “Since when are you a man of faith?”

“Ever since I started getting paid to kill weaker men,” I tell her, letting the medallion slide back under the breastplate.

“And why would such a brawny manly man like yourself choose to worship Skrolba the All-Mother? Isn’t She more for priestesses and midwives?”

“I didn’t like my other options,” I shrug, my hands relaxing. Out of instinct my left rests on Lavender’s pommel. “They asked for too much.”

“But I bet the pay was better,” she suggests. “Probably better companions, too.”

Torvald remains still, muscles tight as he holds onto the reins for dear life. Beads of sweat trail down  from his forehead and disappear into the yellow goatee.

“You alright, boy?” I call to him.

His face scrunches up for a moment, then relaxes into embarrassment. Eyebrows furrowed, the corners of his mouth pulled down, defeat and disgust fill his eyes. Yet the rest of him does not move.

“I think I soiled myself,” he admits, a quiver in his voice threatening to bring tears to his eyes. “Pardon me while I… clean up.”

His back remains stiff, sitting up straight, as he scoots away from us. Inch by inch, he winces until she slips off the wood and vanishes into the trees. In the distance, he splashes into the nearby river. There are tears and sobbing, though that could just be my imagination. 

Poor boy, I think.

“Definitely better companions,” she remarks, catching my eye once more. The smile has diminished, but still glows on her face. Without the mask, her hair flows free. It hangs uneven yet perfect: the left side tickles her cheek while the right courts her jaw. All around, streaks of crimson play hide and seek amongst the ocean of black. Blood in the shadows. Fitting for someone of her profession. 

She’s so close. Just one step and we’re almost touching. Even through her leather and my steel, I feel her warmth as she comes into my arms. A gloved hand runs over the smooth of my scalp, resting on the back of my neck. A gauntlet caresses her cheek while the other other finds the small of her back. We hold each other close, as close as we can without removing our armors. The world around us fades away, and only we remain. We fit together so effortlessly, body and soul, like melody and harmony, thunder and lightning.

Life and Death. How poetic, how perfect.

We come together, an act as natural as the rising sun but as rare as comets coursing through the night sky. It’s been years since we have crossed paths, but this will never change. The world may forsake us, cast us out, forget our names, but there will always be this. No matter how many miles stretch us apart, we will always come back to this. No man, beast, or magic could sever this bond. There may be others along the road for each of us, but this will always be the final destination. This moment, this embrace, this kiss. This love. 

Kym and Rokkoh. To death, and onward.

“Rokkoh?” Tiny, twinkling, fragile, sleepy; the voice comes from the carriage. The princess pokes her head out the door, blonde hair held together at the crown by a pink bow. She holds her blankets around her, still bundled up in the white fleece. Her eyes blink slow, sleepily searching the darkness for me.

Even I have to admit it’s adorable. She’s adorable.

“I’m here,” I tell her through the night. “Everything is okay. Mr. Driver just needed a potty break. Go back to sleep, honey.”

Wordless, she crawls back in, the carriage door shutting behind her. Intrigue glows in Kym’s smirk now, an eyebrow arching in my direction. She releases me and backs out of my arms, leaning against a wheel with arms folded over her chest.

“So a man of faith and of family? You’ve changed, my dear,” she says, something almost sad or disappointed lacing her words. 

“It’s not like that.” The phrase comes hotter and gruffer than I intend. “She’s not mine. I’m just an escort. It’s a job.”

Silence comes again. There isn’t even Torvald’s splashing anymore. Kym’s smile vanishes, contempt and longing burning holes into me. She glances to her right, staring at the carriage door for a moment before focusing on me again. Something changes in her eyes, her being. The scorn and lust remain, no surprise there, but both are overshadowed by some other thing. Her black eyebrows scrunch together, and her gaze goes to the door once more. 

“There’s always a job to be done,” she says, cold, conflicted. A gloved hand recedes into the coat again, waits there. I call her name, a low warning, to no avail. A statue she becomes, frozen as she takes hold of an eager, hungry dagger. Those eyes, dark as dark, flick back to me, issuing either a warning of her own or a challenge. I can’t tell which. 

A job, she had said. We both have taken on plenty of them. It’s how people like us survive. A job means coin. Coin means a roof, or a meal, or any number of things. Coin means living another day. Our jobs used to be similar, way back when. But destiny had other plans for us. My jobs took me to bandit hideouts, camps of necromancers, or had me protecting a princess on her way to wherever she needed to go. Kym’s jobs took her to singular targets sleeping in their homes or catching them by surprise on the road. Both of us worked in the art of spilling blood, just different mediums. I would and did not judge her for her decisions, and she would pay me in kind.

A job, she had said. The words click. Kym reveals her black blade as she bolts for the door. With a lunge, I block her path. She thuds against my steel, and I take her by the throat. In return, she presses her dagger to mine. We stand there, unmoving in our violent embrace, neither of us eilling to relent to the other.

“I’ve got a lot of money riding on this, Rokkoh,” she snarls. “Get out of the way!”

My grip tightens, only a little bit. I’ll hurt her if I have to, but for now I would prefer not ruining her pretty neck.

“So do I,” I tell her. “Maybe not as much, but I need it just as much as you do.”

The blade sinks in, only enough to draw a single drop of blood. It tickles as it trails.

Time stands still. I don’t know how long we keep the standoff. But then I feel a hand on my chest, her free hand. In the blink of an eye an invisible force like a kicking horse pushes me back, sending me flying through the air and landing past the end of the carriage. The dent makes sense now. The wind knocked out of me, I struggle to lift myself onto my elbows. When I get there, the carriage door is open. Gulping in what air I can, I get to my feet and run to the door. Kym stands behind it, looking inside with her dagger drawn and ready to feed. Yet, she remains still. At any moment she could have climbed inside and sunk the metal into the princess. She could have taken a token as proof of her slaying for her contract. She could have even done the deed and then rounded back for me. Torvald doesn’t know her, didn’t see her face, so he’d be safe. Or maybe she could have even gone after him as well. Leave no witnesses. 

Yet, she remains still. Watching, waiting, bewitched, I have no idea. With slow steps I come from behind, peering over her. The princess, snug in her soft white blankets, sleeps. A peaceful child in peaceful sleep. The purest, most innocent thing I’ve seen in a long time. Perhaps the same could be said for Kym. I place a gentle hand on her shoulder, turning her away from her would-be victim. Tears pool in her eyes, her desire pouring out and trickling down her cheeks. The bladed hand goes limp, the weapon plummeting to the dirt. She crumbles into my arms. And she weeps.

“They didn’t say she was a baby,” she cries. “Barely old enough to be off the bottle.”

I search for words of comfort, but come up empty. It’s not fair, to the princess or the assassin. It’s dishonest. It’s crude. It’s despicable. It’s vile.

It’s evil.

“Bastards,” she spits, the tears still coming. The melancholy, though, is replaced by hot, indomitable rage and hatred. “The lot of them.”

She steps out of my embrace again, determined and focused vitriol shining through the tears. Taking her black dagger and sheathing it again, she looks beyond me and into the woods. Her mask hides her face once more, and the hood goes back up. 

“If anything happens to her,” she says, the grave tone sparking a small fear in my gut, “nothing will stop me from feeding your insides to the pigs at the old farm.”

A second later, and she fades into the shadows of the forest. That little flicker grows, nests inside me, makes a nice comfy home. A bead of sweat rises on my forehead and races to the dark hairs on my chin. I stand there, searching the darkness for her, waiting for her to come back.

“Everything alright?”

I spin around, hand on Lavender and ready to swing. Torvald appears, drenched to the bone. He looks around for a moment, trying to find his assailant. He finds only the paladin.

“Yeah,” I tell him, looking to the trees once more. “Let’s get going.”

Torvald climbs back to the reins. I settle into my spot in the carriage.

If they sent Kym, who else is on our trail?

Continue to Chapter Six

002 Motivation/Procrastination

When it comes to getting things done, some people achieve that with ease. They see a task and get right to it. Others, like myself, sometimes need a little nudge. The desire and drive is there, but something is missing: motivation. So how does one get motivated? Here are a few things that help me:

  • Listening to a playlist designed for a certain project: I have a few of these little modern mixtapes: one is a pop punk/rock/grunge mix for my NaNoWriMo 2014 project “Ghost”; another is shorter, all being songs in which Ryan Clark from Demon Hunter performs as a guest vocalist; a third is a playlist of amazing mashups
  • Enjoying something that inspires me, like a certain show or movie: For instance, watching “The Perks of Being a Wallflower” gets me in the mood to work on one of my young adult projects.
  • Talking to people who support you: I have found that a conversation with certain people will help get me in gear. To those people, thank you for always being there.

The enemy of motivation is procrastination. It creeps in, infects with its necrosis until it eats away the last of your muscle and bone. For the longest time, I let myself be a victim of the disease. This year, I plan on changing things. (More on this in a later post.) Here are some tips and tricks that have done wonders in keeping procrastination at bay:

  • Set daily goals: Try to get something done every day. Be it taking out the trash, catching up on that show, or organizing your pantry, do at least one productive thing every day. It’s okay if you have a day or two where you miss something. We’re human, it happens. But getting at least one thing done gets at least that one thing off your to-do list.
  • Put yourself on a schedule: This can tie in with your daily goals. Set aside some time to be productive.
  • Human sacrifice: A personal favorite.

Hopefully some of this will help you with tasks or hobbies. Good luck!

Rokkoh and the Princess, Chapter 3

Outside the Sheriff’s Tower waits a gargantuan chestnut horse pulling a plain wooden carriage. A thin being in a too-big blue shirt, yellow hair like a bowl, speaks in a hushed tone to the mighty animal. He offers kind words, compliments its coat and healthy build. My forced cough sends a jolt through him; he jumps in his spot, startled. He finds my amused grin a moment later, catching a breath of relief.

“Oh, Sir Rokkoh!” he says with an uneven laugh. “It’s you.”

“Expecting someone else?” I ask.

“You never know what to expect after dark,” he replies, running nervous fingers over the hairs on his chin. “Ma always said it’s bad luck to be out at night time. That’s when all the thieves and monsters come out.”

Innocent, naive boy. Still believing in the horror stories his mum told him when he was a wee lad. Recluse, she was. Rarely left her house even during the day. She often sent a servant out to do her errands. If anything, good on Torvald for not succumbing to the same fate. At least he has enough courage to aspire to be a knight, or even a guardsman. But he still has a long journey ahead of him.

“Silly boy,” I say, low, as I approach him and the carriage. “Thievery and monstrosities know not of time. The best pickpockets and burglars strike whenever they please. As for monsters?”

Close now, towering over the boy, I chuckle a dark sound. “They’re always watching, always waiting, always hungry. The worst ones don’t even hide out in the wilds. They live there.”

My thumb points over my shoulder, back to the Sheriff’s Tower. Torvald’s lip quivers, eyebrows disappearing beneath his blond hair. Fear emanates from every pore, and I laugh. Loud, hearty, terrifying. It bounces off the storefronts, the tower itself, and assaults the twiggy boy. I’m surprised he doesn’t piss himself.

“I’m kidding,” I say a moment later, clapping him on the shoulder. “You’ll never be safer than within these walls.”

Torvald chokes out a nervous chuckle and attempts a small smile. He clasps onto his shaky hands, praying they would calm down. Probably also wishes he weren’t so timid, so easily frightened. Time would help with that. Time and experience. The more he would see of the world, the more desensitized he would become. It’s how we all got through our early days of violence and courage. Some of us just got a headstart on the others. Torvald, on the other hand, may be a little behind his peers.

“The Queen mentioned you have our travel plans.”

This seems to ease out his fear. His face lights up with a genuine smile. Excitement, perhaps. He reaches into the pockets of his pants, digging for a moment. It takes a too-long, awkward minute, but finally he reveals a letter much like mine. The seal, green and unbroken, begs for its secrets to be learned. The boy looks at it, hesitating.

“Am I supposed to give this to you?” he asks, childish confusion scrunching his brow into one line. “The courier didn’t specify.”

With a quick hand I snatch the paper from his fingers. He opens his mouth to protest, but swiftly closes it at the sight of my daring look. The instructions, simple and in the same hand as my letter, read:

Follow the main road out of Oakwing

Cross the bridge at the Red Bear River

Stop in Red Bear, ask for Jerl at the Ursa Lodge

Continue in the morning

Cross the border into Walteria

Follow the road to Lower Yellowberry

Find Vicar Senthia

Seems simple enough. An approval huffs out of my nose, sparking a curious and worried look on Tovald’s face.

“What is it?” he asks. I hand the letter back and move past him, stepping into the carriage. “Oh! Seems simple enough. Haven’t had anything bad happen on those roads. Round trip should only be a couple days.”

“Mhm,” I agree, settling onto the plush seat. Stretching out my legs and resting my heels on the seat opposite me, I relax. My eyes close in the comfort, ready to cast me off into wonderful sleep.

“Rokkoh,” comes her voice. With a peek out of the corner of my eyes I find Queen Mathilde standing in the doorway of the carriage, Princess Evalina in her arms to no one’s surprise.

“I’m sleeping,” I mumble, closing my eye and trying to get back to that comfortable place.

“Any good dreams?” she asks, humored.

“Well, there’s one,” I smirk. “Not sure if it’s a dream or a distant memory, but you were there. Maximus too. Remember him? We were all at that tavern deep in the Northern Everglow Wood. Max and I were getting drunk on the special ale there, and you were dancing.”

“Certainly a dream, then,” she giggles. But we both know, whether a dream or a memory, which of the two it is.

“Good dream,” I chuckle, letting my feet down and leaning forward with my elbows on my knees.

The Queen holds the girl close, giving her one last look before offering the sleeping babe to me. With careful hands I accept her. She is so small, so warm, so snug in her white blanket. She sucks on her pacifier as she sleeps, playing in peaceful dreamland.

For a moment, I see it. I see why all the guards fawned over her. I see why Mattie was, and is, so protective of her. I see why she didn’t want to give up the girl so quickly. For a moment, thoughts of disappearing into the night with her play in my mind. It would be easier done than said: have Torvald stop somewhere along the road, break his neck, toss his body into the nearby shrubbery, and leave. We could go anywhere, be anyone. Just a widower and his daughter.

A gentle touch lays the bundled princess on the soft cushion of the seat. She is not mine. It is not my place to keep her from her kin. She has been stolen once already, it would be cruel to steal her again. Skrolba the All-Mother, whose symbol I wear on a chain around my neck underneath the steel armor, would be dissatisfied with such a decision. There would be no coin for securing safe passage to the princess’s homeland.

Speaking of which…

Queen Mathilde holds a small leather pouch as I turn to her. She drops it into my outstretched hand, and I examine the contents.

“Your contact at your destination will provide you with the rest of your payment,” she states. “If you have any trouble with the second installment, seek the King or Queen. They should sort out the matter.”

Her eyes the hue of the jewels in her crown wander to the little child once more, lingering there for a longing moment. She presses her fingers to her lips, gives them a light kiss, and caresses Evalina’s cheek with that kiss. She releases a shaky breath, and even in the low light of the night I can see the glistening in those green eyes.

“You still have time.” 

My voice is barely above a whisper. Her eyes shoot to me, fire igniting in that moment. I meet her, and for a long silent moment we hold each other there. She puts everything she has into burning me for saying something so offensive. Unfortunately for her, such heat has little effect on me thanks to too many years of playing with fire like hers. The flames in her die down, diminishing to a smolder as she breaks contact. So much pain, so much desire, so much conflict. She watches the child once more. Like before, something in her changes, brings her back to those sweet imaginations of calling the girl her own. 

“If only it were that easy,” she breathes, offering a fake smile. “Not even I could go unpunished for keeping her. You know how Domhnall gets about things when they are no longer of use to him.” 

“That’s not what I meant.”

A hand goes to her stomach. She holds it there, wishing so damn hard for the one thing she wants more than anything else in the world to manifest there. Just one, that’s all she asks for. Ideally, if the fates would allow, she would want four in total. Spread out, of course, not all at once. Two of each would be perfect. She even has names picked out for them all, and some to spare. But she only needs one. It would suffice. She would be thankful for that one, and for every day spent together with that one. Every night she prays to whatever god might be listening for just this one thing. Fuck the King, fuck the city, fuck the whole country. She would forsake them all in a heartbeat. 

“If only it were that easy.” 

The glistening builds, overflows, runs. 

She’s gone a second later.

“Are you ready, Sir Rokkoh?” Torvald asks, appearing in the now-empty doorway.

“Get us to Red Bear,” I command. “And keep the ride smooth.”

Torvald nods with an eager smile before shutting the door. A moment later and we’re off. The carriage shakes here and there, but I’m able to relax again regardless. The princess takes no notice of the world around her. Taking her wordless recommendation, I follow her lead and ease into my seat. Eyes closed, with the sound of only the carriage on the road, sleep serenades me with a sweet lullaby. In seconds, I succumb.

Continue to Chapters 4 & 5