Goodbye, 2025

Ouroboros has caught its tail and started its feast. The year has come to a close, and the next has begun. With 2025 now in the rearview mirror, I would like to share some highlights of my year. In no particular order:

  • Celebrated 7 years at my job
  • Took my first trip out to the Pacific Northwest, visiting Portland Oregon for my 35th birthday
  • Saw my favorite band Sleep Token for the second time
  • Started making more silly little TikTok videos for shits and giggles
  • Wrote 75,240 total words, most of which being for Incinerate (and oh boy is it getting long)
  • Dropped off a few of the remaining uncorrected proof copies of The Rokkoh Adventures to a local bookstore, and they all were sold (if you have one of these books, hello!)
  • Expanded my library to the point that all of my shelves are full again (despite not really having any room for more shelves)
  • Restarted my journey with Don’t Break The Chain (to learn more about this exercise, click here)
  • Chose to remove Incinerate from the website (I may post more about his at a later date)
  • Got my first tattoo
  • Read one of the most infuriatingly boring books ever published (Diary of an Oxygen Thief by Anonymous, just so you can avoid it)

Here’s to 2026. Let’s try not to destroy each other.

The Works of S Lightfoot: Haven the Sentinel

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, readers! Throughout 2025, I worked on this new short story. It stated as an idea for a Dungeons & Dragons character but evolved into more. I hope you enjoy it!

The Dwarven realm of Kom Malduhr had been known for its proficiency in crafting the finest jewelry. The wealthiest buyers from across the continent would flock to the annual Glistening Bazaar hosted in the ivory streets of Kom Malduhr. But with the oligarchs and magnates came the attention of the Black Blood Marauders, a band of greedy brigands who had made a name for themselves through ruthless pillaging and bloody raids. At one such Bazaar, the Marauders appeared and demanded tribute from both patrons and sellers alike. When Hjoldor Goldhewn, King of Kom Malduhr, refused and threatened the Marauders with his army of Dwarven warriors as they surrounded, the bloodthirsty gang vowed to make a vile assault when they returned. 

Though no blood was shed that day, King Hjoldor knew a fight would soon come. Despite the uncertainty of when that battle would commence, he set to work on fortifying the defenses. Recruiting more soldiers and bolstering those stationed at the realm’s borders, King Hjoldor still needed something extra, something special, something the Black Blood Marauders wouldn’t see coming.

Borunaz Quarrystone had come from a long line of hardy miners. While he continued the family tradition by digging further into the mountain which housed Kom Malduhr’s magnificence, he yearned for something more. After tiring days digging up ore and gemstones, he fancied himself a tinkerer. His home was filled with little gadgets and gizmos he had designed from childhood onward, most of which could move on their own with the turning of cogs or by the power of steam. His sights, however, lofted higher than cute trinkets or children’s toys. Borunaz dreamed of bringing a construct to life. Poring over schematics and gathering materials could only do so much. He needed a trial run and something more powerful than steam to make his creation thrive.

Thus, he enlisted the help of local sorceress Elloriana Axehammer. The rumor mill speculated that in between sessions of potion-making and enchanting items as part of her trade, she had been trying to crack the mystery of the life force.Together, they researched deep into several nights in hopes of finding some magical miracle that would quench both of their thirsts for knowledge. While on the verge of attaining their goal, the Black Blood Marauders arrived at the Glistening Bazaar and made their threat.

Borunaz’s and Elloriana’s purposes changed that day. No longer was their pursuit in the name of technical and magical wonder. No longer did they see their potential achievements as landmarks for their careers or a monolith that would earn them praise. No longer was it about them and their own endeavors. Now it was an avenue to provide their beloved Kom Malduhr a fresh sense of safety and security. Should they pull off the impossible, to bring true sentient life to a mechanical construct, they could possibly help save their home from death and ruin. That would be more powerful and fulfilling than a sack of gold, though both wouldn’t hurt.

One evening, Elloriana came to Borunaz with a breakthrough. She refused to say how she had come by it, but she was certain it would work. With a mix of herbs, potions, and sacred words in an ancient tongue. Elloriana prepared her spell. Upon uttering the final syllable, their workshop went dark. Not even the city outside their window bled its light into the room. The blackness surrounded for a long and silent moment, finally breaking as a small white sphere with an ethereal glow descended through the ceiling. It fell, slow and in a solid line, toward the still metallic figure lying on the workbench. The little ball, perfect and beautiful like a pearl, sunk below the chest plate and disappeared into the body.

Borunaz and Elloriana held their breath. In the darkness, they found each other’s hands and gripped tight. This was the moment they had studied and crafted and worked so hard for. Though they were too stunned to speak, they prayed to whichever god was listening to let this miracle occur.

Wood creaked and metal groaned in the darkness. The air stirred. A hum buzzed into the emptiness and then quieted itself. Metal scraped against metal. Soon, two small rings of light blinked to life, bright white circles that drove out the surrounding black and illuminated the space. They sat high, far taller than either dwarf could reach on their own. Borunaz’s and Elloriana’s faces lit up with wonder as the lights (no, the eyes, they thought) found them. The eyes disappeared with a slow shutter, then reopened with a new small ball of the same white in each center.

The lights of the workshop flickered back on. The automaton sat upright on the table. Its brow was raised as it examined them, the little white pupils bouncing back and forth between the two dwarves. Its head was wide, stocky, and smooth. It sat atop a short but thick neck. Mostly made of steel, its detailed parts, particularly its brow and mouth, shined gold in the light. The latter, a simple hinged jaw that hung slightly ajar, moved up and down in a minute movement as if it was trying to say something. Wide shoulders led to a long torso, its breast made of a strong and brilliant gold. Its arms and legs, both of which seemed to go on for forever, hosted long stretches of that same metal bordered by strips of steel. Underneath, seen through small gaps between the golden and silvery plates, were long sinewy tendons that connected all of the being’s parts. Its steel hands sat on its knees, intricately designed in its digits and joints, as its fingers flexed. Hovering only a few inches above the floor were sturdy blocks of hardened steel, the bright silver metal reaching up from the feet to the middle of its calves.

Borunaz and Elloriana could not contain their excitement. They exploded with joy. The sudden loud sound of their exaltation startled the metal being; it jumped from its spot and tumbled off of the table. When the dwarves noticed, they rushed to its aid and helped it to its feet. Once upright, it towered over them by two feet. Despite the mild scare, it did not show signs of fear. Instead, it held out a gentle hand to greet them both.

Over the course of the following few days, the duo observed the automaton to determine its level of intelligence and sentience. They gave it puzzles, which it solved quickly. They showed it a variety of items and asked for their names and functions, which it answered flawlessly. They spoke in both their native Dwarvish and the common tongue, which it responded in the same dialects. Although it did not come much as a surprise to them, they noticed that it did not require any nourishment to stave off hunger or thirst. They watched as it would sit and become still, noting that while it rested it did not quite sleep. Once called upon, it would spring to its feet and give them its attention. Finally, they began to ask questions. How did it feel? Was it thinking anything? Did it know where or who it was? Borunaz and Elloriana were met with confusion. While the automaton understood that it felt safe and was generally aware that it was in a dwarven workshop, it could not quite grasp the concept of who it was. It knew that the two of them were dwarves, but had no word to call itself. It was alive, yes, but it knew not who it could call kin. It did not even have a name for itself. It had no memories of who it may have been before inhabiting the crafted body. When asked what it wanted in life, again it had no answer.

The looming threat of the Black Blood Marauders’ return boiled throughout Kom Malduhr. From the commonfolk to King Hjoldor, whispers fluttered through the streets as to when the vicious bandits would return. While they had yet to be spotted near the borders or even worse within their realm, King Hjoldor could feel their presence. He made a proclamation to his people: whosoever came to him with either information of the Black Blood Marauders’ whereabouts or solutions to further bolster their protection would be generously rewarded. 

Borunaz and Elloriana knew their time had come. They queued with many others in the halls of King Hjoldor’s meeting quarters. Informants, inventors, and even some less-than-honorable profiteers each waited for their turns to speak with the king and offer whatever they had at their disposal. To avert curious eyes, Borunaz and Elloriana carted the automaton around with a sheet on top of it. It sat still, just as it was asked, all the way from the workshop and into the conference room where King Hjoldor and his advisors were stationed. The lordly dwarves’ looks of tiredness, boredom, and mild desperation flickered to intrigue at the sight of the shrouded mass. The inventor and the sorceress explained what they had made and their process (or, as much as they would tell to not expose any crafting or magical secrets), and they emphasized their belief that it could stand up to any foe placed before it.

The automaton rose from its spot then, getting to its feet in a slow and careful motion so as not to scare the onlookers. Once at its full height, it pulled the sheet from its body and revealed itself. It was met with gasps, as well as looks ranging from awe to mild horror. The king’s advisors remained seated as the automaton stepped off of its cart, but King Hjoldor was too intrigued to stay put. With slow steps, the two of them moved closer and closer to one another. Borunaz and Elloriana held their breath just as they had done that night in the workshop. Soon, the automaton and the king stood face to face, the latter atop a small flight of stairs. He christened the automaton a Sentinel and shook its metal hand.

More Sentinels were soon ordered and put into production. Borunaz was granted access to Kom Malduhr’s resources and a team of employees to assist with the construction. Elloriana used her magic each night a new batch was completed. In a matter of a couple months, more than one hundred Sentinels stood ready to defend the people of Kom Malduhr. 

During this massive production spree, Borunaz’s and Elloriana’s first Sentinel transitioned to living in King Hjoldor’s palace. There, he became acquainted with the royal family. Of them all, he was most often paired with Queen Katrin. The Sentinel and the Queen quickly formed a tight bond, which was encouraged by her inquisitive nature. Much like in the workshop, the Sentinel was asked many questions. The Sentinel did not mind; it welcomed them, in fact. Each question could lead it closer to learning more about itself, which delighted both it and the Queen. Not long after the initial introductory phase, Queen Katrin nicknamed the Sentinel “Haven” for how safe she felt around it. Even after it was branded with its specialized serial number on its arm and its workshop code embedded on its forehead, it preferred to be called Haven.

Training came to Haven and the other Sentinels with a quick ease. Soon, platoons of Sentinels were ready to guard the borders and patrol the streets. A squad of them were even reserved to protect the royal family specifically, among whom Haven officially was assigned to be Queen Katrin’s personal bodyguard. The two could not have been happier.

The next Glistening Bazaar was right around the corner. There had not yet been any signs of the Black Blood Marauders near any side of the border, but Kom Malduhr’s vigilance would not falter. Travelers trickled into the capital in the weeks leading up to the event, most of whom ogled at the tall metallic figures that walked around. None seemed to mind these new additions to the capital, however. Some even wondered if they would be up for sale once the Bazaar commenced. 

When the day came and the vendors revealed their goods to their patrons, a silent worry crept throughout the streets. It lingered underneath every transaction, every conversation, every waking moment. As the days passed, two camps of thought emerged: either the Black Blood Marauders were right around the corner and were waiting until the final day to launch their assault, or they weren’t coming at all. King Hjoldor, again and again, assured his citizens and their guests that they all would remain safe whether or not the Black Blood Marauders would fulfill their violent promise.

And then the Glistening Bazaar came to an end. Purveyors sold off the last of their goods and happy customers returned home. The citizenry breathed a sigh of relief, finally allowing that feeling of safety to sink in. Over the course of the next few weeks, everything seemed to go back to normal.

Haven, however, could not let go of its paranoia. Although nary a sighting of the vicious ones was ever reported, it could feel them out there watching. For many nights, Haven would gaze out upon the capital and the land beyond and swear it could feel something horrible on the horizon. It knew deep within its complex body that the trouble was not over. Perhaps that feeling, it thought, was the true menace of the Black Blood Marauders: to rip away one’s sense of safety and security forever, despite having no real intention to deliver that lethal strike. It hated that feeling, that lack of control over its emotions. It hated the Black Blood Marauders.

They first came in the night. Slipping past the outposts and watchtowers, they opted to trek through the camouflage of the forests before reaching the capital. They started with a home on the outskirts and left only a grisly silence in their wake. It wasn’t until the house’s denizens were reported missing in the following days that the city seemed to notice. By then, more and more bodies had piled up. King Hjoldor and his advisors were left with more questions than answers. More Sentinels were assigned to patrol the streets at night. Soon, curfews were put in place and all residents were advised to lock their doors at night. For a long while, there were no other such instances. While the perpetrator of the killings was never found, King Hjoldor kept the curfews in place. He, as well as many others, were not yet certain that they were all safe.

Haven thought dawn had come earlier than expected, that its internal clock had been off somehow. Outside Queen Katrin’s window where it stood guard, the bright warmth of the sun filled the horizon. But the sun, as it had come to know, did not dance as it shined. The sun did not crackle and roar. The sun did not send dwarves running through the streets away from it.

The fire spread quickly. Haven’s duty was to protect Queen Katrin, but it knew deep in its circuits that it needed to help. She accepted its plea and gave it permission to leave its post to help the citizens below. Haven ran through the streets and escorted others to safety. It searched homes for anyone trapped and freed them. It carried unconscious dwarves away from the flames. Back and forth it went, diving into the hellscape over and over until its metal grew too hot. During its final round of looking for anyone at all needing help or bodies needing to be pulled from the inferno, a curious sight caught its attention: strewn here and there amidst the razing buildings were several charred husks of Sentinel Patrollers. Haven wondered if they had felt that same urge to come help and perished in their efforts, or if their advanced state of incineration meant they had already been there when the fires started. Needing to escape, it could not dwell on these thoughts.

Most of the capital’s homes were destroyed before the fires could be put out, leaving only those living closest to the palace. Included in the destruction was Borunaz’s original workshop and Elloriana’s home. However, due to increased production, the former was no longer used to create Sentinels. For their monumental contribution to Kom Malduhr, they were both granted rooms of their own in the palace while reconstruction was under way. 

Those who remained displaced were invited to stay either with those spared from the fire or in a makeshift shelter. Reconstruction began shortly after a mourning period, but fewer workers made the effort slower than expected. More Sentinels were created to supplement the workforce, and soon whole neighborhoods were restored to their former glory. Now blessed with magic making them immune to fire, citizens returned to their homes with a breath of security.

Haven, however, felt that something was still wrong. It could not place why it had such a feeling, which troubled it even more. Shadows crept with secrets. The night air carried malevolent whispers. Eyes shifted, watched from their corners. Spies, it reasoned, were hidden all around them. Spies for the Black Blood Marauders. The vile bandits were not yet finished with Kom Malduhr, but how would they strike next?

Haven brought its concerns to Queen Katrin. Full of worry herself at her guardian’s observations and suspicions, she passed them along to her husband, who then shared them with his advisors. These dwarves assured King Hjoldor that there would be no such further attacks from the Black Blood Marauders, for they had gotten their revenge in the terrible razing of the city. The king relented and took them at their word.

Three days later, sickness ravaged the capital. Cases of faintness, lethargy, loss of smell and taste, body aches, and vomiting flooded the medical center. While most survived, victims piled up. Mostly small children and the elderly succumbed to whatever disease spread throughout the city, but it was no less crippling for the hardier folk. Another round of Sentinels was ordered to help care for the sick, as they were immune to all illnesses that could befall dwarven kind. Families were forced to separate to avoid the further spread of the disease, including the royal family. Thankfully, each had their own Sentinel to keep them company and tend to them.

While others argued that the illness could have been borne of diseased rats that had made their way into the city, Haven was not swayed to believe such theories. It was certain this disease was the work of the Black Blood Marauders. Whether they had a terrible yet talented alchemist in their ranks or they had recruited (or forced) one to do their bidding, it could not determine. As with the fire that had ravaged the capital, Haven shared its thoughts with Queen Katrin, who shared them with King Hjoldor, who shared them with his advisors. However, again, the worry was brushed off as baseless conspiracy. Their misfortunes, they assured King Hjoldor, were simply that: misfortunes. There was no credible link between either tragedy and the Black Blood Marauders.

Those who were too sick to work were replaced by Sentinels. It was promised to be only a temporary solution while the citizenry regained their health and strength. Some, though, whispered that this had been devised from the start. Rumors circulated that the royal family, in their opulence and greed, had commissioned the constructs as a way to protect their wealth. The calamities, even the initial threat and subsequent attack from the Black Blood Marauders, were planned to weaken the commonfolk. These conspirators claimed that once the people were thoroughly downtrodden from so much disaster, King Hjoldor would claim all their possessions as his and drive his lowly kinsman into poverty purely for his own gain. 

The whispers grew louder in the streets, and unrest settled amongst the capital. Violence sparked against the Sentinels. Blood was shed. Metal casings exploded into shrapnel. Calls from the king for the fighting to cease fell on deaf dwarven ears. 

King Hjoldor’s advisors brokered a potential peace treaty between their kin and the Sentinels. There was but one stipulation: the Sentinels must leave the capital and never return. Despite protests from the king, his advisors were steadfast in upholding this decision. With great reluctance, King Hjoldor signed The Mechanical Parting Accord and banished all Sentinels from his kingdom. They marched out of the capital, out of Kom Malduhr, and into the wilderness.

Haven, however, remained behind. Under the command of Queen Katrin, it sequestered itself into a hidden chamber in her quarters. Initially meant to serve as a bunker in case of an emergency, the hidden space soon became Haven’s new home. Queen Katrin would visit often, updating her Sentinel on the goings-on of the dwarven capital. Peace returned to the streets. A cure was developed for the terrible sickness that had brought them to their knees, and sparse cases remained. The Glistening Bazaar approached, and many were hard at work preparing their wares. Queen Katrin stopped by early in the morning when the Glistening Bazaar began, as she often did each morning. Haven entertained itself with the books it kept in its shelter, as it often did every day. It worked on its swordplay against a stuffed training dummy, as it often did every day. It paced and pondered the activities of the world outside its secret room, as it often did every day.

Morning turned to midday.

Haven waited.

Midday turned to dusk.

Haven waited.

Dusk turned to night, turned to morning, turned to night again.

Haven waited.

The walls were soundproofed, both inside and outside. The door to its hidden room was locked from the outside. The sole key was kept on Queen Katrin’s person. There was no exit, no escape. Only patience. 

Haven kept track of the passing days for as long as it could. It would mark notable activities and occurrences, if any, in a journal. After several entries, its writings devolved into incomprehensible phrases and non-words. Not long after, the entries stopped altogether. The books went untouched. Dust settled on everything.

Even as the room darkened and blurred around it, as its body slowed and grew tired and weak, as its mind frayed and withered, Haven waited.

When it awoke, light filtered in through the open door. It lay on the bed, but it did not recall ever falling asleep. A sword lay at its side atop the bed covers. Dust particles danced in sunbeams. Books sat in stacks here and there about the floor. And poring over tomes not far from the bed were two figures: a man and a woman, both human. When they spoke to each other in hushed voices, it could not immediately decipher the language. After a few soft clicks in its head, the words made more sense. They spoke in Commontongue. It wondered, as it lay motionless on the bed, where it had learned the language. It could not remember having heard it before, but it must have. What other languages did it know? What was its native tongue? Did it even have a tongue?

The humans took notice of it watching them. They froze at first like deer listening for predators in the woods. Soon, the shorter of the two, the woman, slowly stepped forth. Wonder and awe and unbridled curiosity sparked on her face as she drew near. She marveled to her companion at its construction and how it seemed to still be working. She asked it to sit up.

It did.

She asked it to stand.

It did.

She asked it to pick up the sword.

It did.

The man asked its name. 

Its head whirred. It had a name. Of course it had a name. Everything and everyone had a name. Why, then, could it not answer?

The man pointed to its forehead. Something was written there: TIK. Perhaps, it thought, that was its name. The woman asked if it was, and although it was uncertain it accepted it as such. The humans introduced themselves as Rokkoh and Kym, adventurers who had stumbled upon a ruined city and its hidden chamber. They invited Tik to journey with them, at least until they returned to the nearest town, and it accepted.

Outside the open door lay a short but broad skeleton. Its bones within the faded and dirty yet ornate dress made ridges in the cloth. An arm reached out toward the door. Kym told Tik that an old, dusty key had been held in between the skeleton’s fingers, and that key had opened the secret door.

Tik looked upon the skeleton and felt sorrow. Had it known this person? It must have. Why else would it feel like crying if only it had the capability? Yet that familiarity had sunk too far in its depths, too low into the darkness and shadow of memory. It knelt, pressed its fingertips to where its mouth would be if it had one, and laid them upon the aged and fragile skull.

Tik followed close behind as the group traversed through the remainder of the derelict palace. Again, it felt as though it knew the place, but had no idea why. Even as the trio passed through the giant doors of the entrance hall and out into the ruined city, its head whirred dully with faint recognition. Homes, workshops, and market stalls had once brought this city to life. Now there was only desolation.Tik’s proverbial heart shattered. It asked the humans if they knew of the city’s history, what had happened to it, and when it had fallen into such a woeful state. They unfortunately had no answers, but suggested a historian they knew might know. 

The road to their historian was long, but it offered sights of rolling hills, grand mountains, bubbling brooks, and a magnificent ocean. Beautiful through and through, in every nook and cranny, wonderful to the very dirt. Tik was enthralled by it all. It would often be found watching insects crawl along its hands or animals as they drank from lakes or rivers. It even found people fascinating. Its eyes would linger over folks of all types: humans like its rescuers, elegant-looking people with pointed ears called elves, various kinds of being with animal features, and even smaller folk like halflings, gnomes, and dwarves. 

The latter gave it that feeling again, and it thought of that skeleton outside its door. The proportions made sense in hindsight. The bones could have belonged to some dwarven noble, and perhaps the whole city had been a dwarven haven.

Haven. Hm. That feeling once more.

Something Tik struggled with accepting was the attention of others. While it had found itself utterly fascinated by those around it, catching curious and sometimes fearful glances made it uneasy. It meant no one any harm. And how was it any different than the myriad of humanoids that made up the world? True, the rest of them were made of flesh and it was made of metal and cord, but what was wrong with that? Were there so few like Tik out in the world? Did it have no automaton peers? Was it alone, and thus an oddity?

The journey was not without its perils. At night, the occasional predator would prowl around their campsite. In efforts to spare the creatures’ lives, Tik would scare them off with a blaze of fire or showing off its grand size. On a sunny day, the way was blocked by a band of rogues. Swords drawn, they refused to let the group pass without paying a toll. Upon seeing the automaton, they demanded the humans surrender it as payment to use their road. They refused.

Something in Tik snapped. A fiery hatred filled its cords and gears. Before the others could stop it, it stepped down from the carriage and approached the bandits. At first, they cheered thinking they had won a fancy new toy. Tik, however, drew its sword. The air hung still in silence for a long few seconds. Tik leapt forth into the throng. Its blade found flesh, severed it, made it weep crimson. Its free hand snatched the nearest of them and threw them into a pair. All three crumpled to the ground, groaned there, and were slow to rise back to their feet. Metal sang and sparked against Tik’s body, but it felt nothing but vitriol. Those who brandished their weapons against it were met with either a deep laceration or a heavy fist. In a matter of merely a minute, none of the despicable marauders were left standing.

Marauders, it thought, did not deserve to breathe as free people. They did not deserve to breathe at all, in fact. Death to them all, it decreed. It sought to such.

The trio pressed on and arrived in a city nestled between a mountain and a lake called Yellowberry. It was separated into two sections: Upper Yellowberry on the mountainside and Lower Yellowberry near the water. They piled into a tram and ascended along the face of the mountain until they reached the highest plain. Carved to be flat, a walled courtyard awaited them. Beyond it, a palace was etched into the stone. 

They made their way into one of the towers that made up a corner of the fortification. Inside, incense burned and candles lit up a mystic’s space. Tall bookshelves stretch from the floor to the ceiling, and stacks of more books stood like pillars. The ceiling looked enchanted, granting a few of the sky instead of the stones with which the whole place had been constructed. Spices grew from sprawling vines, and small animals either wandered about the place or rested in cages. 

A figure appeared from behind one of the bookcases. Draped from head to toe in golden fabric with red rope around its waist and crown, they greeted the trio with an eager politeness. She introduced herself to Tik as Vicar Senthia, Mistress of the Histories. She took a keen interest in Tik, eyes hidden behind her shroud examining it in great detail. She asked them all to sit around a small circular table, and they did. On top, laying open, rested a thick tome. Its pages, however, were blank. Vicar Senthia explained that the book would only reveal its truth to those who wished to read from it, and if they had a good heart. 

While Tik was certain of the former, the latter gave it pause. It had no heart at all. Yet, as it gazed upon the aged yellow pages, something seemed to shimmer there. Ink swirled before its eyes, danced across the paper, and scrawled into a strange runic script. Tik could not read it, but it felt all too familiar. Slowly, as its head whirred and the cogs within spun faster, the symbols began to make sense. Dwarvish, it realized. It could read Dwarvish.

The others asked what it saw, unable to witness it for themselves. Tik explained Kom Malduhr, the Glistening Bazaar, the Black Blood Marauders, all of it. It remembered its makers, BorunazQuarrystone and EllorianaAxehammer, and the royal family. It remembered its dear Queen Katrin, and recognized the robe of the skeleton who had perished outside its door. She had died there, key in hand, trying to free Tik from what would become its tomb. It spoke of the city after the Mechanical Parting Accord, how it had been attacked once more with precious few left alive to spread its tale. The Black Blood Marauders laid waste to Kom Malduhr for its transgressions. Justice came to them, in the end, and had themselves been wiped out years later. The Sentinels, unfortunately, did not fare well upon their release. Most either broke down or were slain by fearful brigands, or simply became lost. Last, Tik learned its true name: Haven, given to him by Queen Katrin. “Tik” had simply been misread, instead being a Dwarvish abbreviation for who and where it had been initially constructed: BorunazQuarrystone of the Quarrystone Armory.

The room went quiet. The book, exhausted of information, closed itself. It was a long time before Vicar Senthia spoke and asked how Haven felt after relearning so much. It did not answer. Rokkoh and Kym asked if it was even still awake. It did not answer. Worried looks cast from all sides of the table. Had it all been too much? Had the knowledge overloaded Haven’s system and caused a devastating crash? None of them knew what to do but wait. And so they did.

Something in Haven’s head ticked multiple times in slow succession. Its fingertips drummed on the table’s surface as if it considered something. Soon after, it stood and left the room without a word. The three others followed it as it exited the tower, walked through the courtyard, and passed through the gate. They stopped there and watched as it entered a tram and descended the mountainside.

Haven walked for days. It retraced the path it and its rescuers had made from the ruined city. It did not stop as the sun set and the moon rose in the sky, nor when the moon later fell and was replaced by the sun. While a long trek, it at least was uneventful. Its stride unbroken, it made its way back to the desolate Kom Malduhr. Though it and the two humans had left it dark and mostly undisturbed, a firelight shone in one of the dark corners. Haven headed toward it. 

The fire and smoke led it to a workshop, just as old and abandoned as everything else in the forgotten city. As it stepped inside, it recognized its decrepit walls as the same workshop in which it had been given life. In the middle of the room, tending to the campfire whose smoke rose through a hole in the ceiling, sat a dwarf woman. Though her back was to Haven, it still knew her as EllorianaAxehammer. 

She greeted him, having not aged a day, and they embraced. For many hours, they held palaver in the firelight. Even as the sun broke over the horizon, their talking did not yield. She told him many things that the book did not reveal. Borunaz had managed to escape the Black Blood Marauder’s assault with her, and together they traveled far and wide. In their journeying, they had been the ones who orchestrated the plot to bring the fiends to their knees, which thankfully worked. They lived together for many decades until his unfortunate yet timely demise. While she had managed to retain her youth (how she managed this she did not say), Borunaz succumbed to the passage of time. She had then become a wanderer for a time, and then a traveling innkeeper. She invited Haven to join her there, to come home and join her odd little family.

Something in its core had to decline. As delightful as it sounded, Haven needed to exist on its own. It had awoken to such a large world, and it needed to see more of it. It needed to, as she had done in the wake of her loss, wander. Without Kom Malduhr and Queen Katrin to serve, it needed to serve itself. It needed to embrace the freedom time and fate had granted it.

And so, it did. 

The automaton and the dwarf parted ways, but her offer remained ever on the table should it change its mind. Haven gazed upon the ruins of Kom Malduhr once last time, said a prayer for its long-gone people, and strode onward.

Autumnal Spirit: A Short Story

It was sometime in autumn, though what month I can’t quite recall. We still lived in the old house in my hometown where I grew up, before the extra burden of housing my second-oldest brother and his family overwhelmed my parents and started our string of moves. The house had been built in the early 1900s. I had heard random odd things in the house growing up, but that’s a different story. My room was on the second floor, as was what had become the guest bedroom. It had previously been the room for the older brother closest to my age, but college whisked him away downstate. That autumn, one of my uncles occupied the space. He was a tall drink of water full of Southern charm that complemented his deep-voiced twang. He snoozed next door while I stayed up late reading a book in bed.

The witching hour struck as the protagonists drank a magic potion they had brewed to change their physical forms. The window beside me had its shades shut, and beyond the pane of glass was the dark, blessed night. I had always enjoyed the night time, its peace and quiet, its dazzling spectacle of stars up above. However, something cut through the quiet: little pebbles against the window’s glass. I thought I had imagined it at first, but it came again. Could it have been a friend who snuck out of their house and wanted to spend the night (what little was left of it, anyways)? If so, why wouldn’t they have texted? Could it have been the short and cute dark-haired girl at school whose beauty had captivated my youthful heart?

Ever the hopeless romantic, the latter possibility sprung me from my bed. I peered out into the dark, searching everywhere for a sign of her, or anyone really. All that greeted me was the neighbor’s driveway and the street lit by lampposts. The town slept outside my window, and perhaps, I thought, so should I. After one last glance in case I had overlooked something, I returned to my bed and my book to finish the chapter.

An unease crept into my skin. Who had thrown those tiny stones? It must have been my imagination. Or, worse, a prank. I did my best to shrug off the thought and focus on the heroes’ adventure, but there were eyes somewhere waiting for me to notice them. I checked the window again, finding more of the same. I pressed my ear against the door, but only heard the snoring of my uncle. Even my closet held no answers. Crawling back into bed, I heaved out a heavy breath and tried to relax once more.

“Over here,” a little girl’s voice giggled through my door.

I froze in a cold sweat. My eyes darted to the door. My uncle couldn’t have made that voice. His snores confirmed his innocence. I had no younger siblings, especially no little sister to speak of. The staircase leading up to the second floor was no ally to those who attempted to sneak up them, instead loudly creaking with each step. Yet there had been only silence before she spoke.

She giggled again, and I was on my feet. Despite the attempt of several horror films to instill in me the wisdom to keep away from the dangers of what goes bump in the night, I stood at the door once more. The door knob was chilly in my hand. I could even see my shaky breath as I hesitated there. Whether it was courage or foolishness, my wrist twisted and turned the knob until the latch clicked open. My heart sprinted hard and fast as I slowly pulled the door back. Holding my breath did little to calm me, and only intensified that awful fear in me. I clenched my eyes shut and poked my head into the ajar space between the door and the jamb. With a prayer of safety coursing through my mind, I eased open my eyes.

Nothing. Just the darkness of the house and my snoring uncle.

I shut the door with a relieved sigh and locked it just to be safe. Back into bed, I laughed at myself for letting my mind run so wild. It was silly, really, the whole thing. Maybe it was time to put the book down and get some sleep. I had clearly been awake too long. Setting the book on the bedside table and shutting off the lights, I pulled up my covers and got comfortable. Snug as a bug in a rug, it was bedtime.

“You’re silly,” she giggled again.

Sleep would finally take me come dawn’s holy light. The little girl would never giggle at my door again. I still heard things from time to time, but that’s a different story.

014 NaNoWriMo 2024

So, NaNoWriMo, huh?

National Novel Writing Month. There are two parts to it: the writing challenge, and the organization. The writing challenge portion of it started back in 1999 when writer Chris Baty and his friends in the San Francisco Bay area decided to tackle the idea of writing 50,000 words in a month. It grew exponentially year after year as more and more writers became aware of the challenge. Fast forward to 2015, and there were over 430,000 participants in 633 different regions worldwide. Some notable published NaNoWriMo novels over the years include: Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen, The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern, and Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell (one of my favorite authors, by the way).

The other part of NaNoWriMo is the organization itself. A website was built and launched in 2000, when they moved the initial month-long project from July to November. They registered as a nonprofit organization in 2005 after years of progressive growth. After some design changes to the website and the addition of forums in 2011, Chris Baty stepped down as executive director to focus on his full-time writing career. In 2022, the organization had its first controversy regarding two of its sponsors, Inkitt and Manuscript Press. To put it simply, these companies were known for terrible practices involving their contract terms and expensive fees. NaNoWriMo cut ties with both companies in response to the community’s backlash. After the event began in November 2023, the Board of Directors temporarily set the forums to read-only when concerns about staff members engaging with underage participants inappropriately surfaced. The forums were shortly shut down altogether.

Earlier this year, a statement was released in regards to the use of generative AI in creative writing. In it, whoever wrote the piece claimed that those opposed the idea were classist and ableist because, according to them, writers who are disabled or poor NEED AI to write their stories to make them good/better. Again, the community became upset with such sentiments, and NaNoWriMo has since scrubbed their initial posting and replaced it with a half-assed middle-of-the-road response. While no name was connected to the author of these posts, most consider them to have been written by Kilby Blades, the interim director after previous director Grant Faulkner stepped down in 2023, because she is the person who often posts updates to the FAQs section of the NaNoWriMo website.

Due to these controversies in recent years, participant numbers have dropped. Last year, I (unsuccessfully) was one such participant. Upon hearing about what had been going on in some of the forums that led to them being shut down, I stopped updating my daily word counts or going to the website altogether. I was uncertain about if I would return this year, and then all the AI stuff happened. Among so many others, I no longer wish to participate with NaNoWriMo as an organization. I will not be interacting with the website or donating to its annual fundraiser.

That said, I will still be trying to write 50,000 words in the month of November. Why? Because while the vessel will perish, the idea will never die. NaNoWriMo as an organization may be on its last leg, unless it makes several big changes to who they allow as sponsors and how they treat staff and participants. However, the concept of trying to write a novel (or a good chunk of a novel) within one month belongs to us all now. Anyone wanting to engage with this challenge, I suggest finding your local writing group for support and comradery. Some, if not most, are likely former/current NaNoWriMo participants.

As for my project this year, I will be working on Incinerate again. I started writing this novel in April 2022 and am maybe halfway to its conclusion. While I love this project, I would rather not spend another two years on it. As stated in previous posts, I have a problem with productivity that I would very much like to correct. The amount of unfinished tales in my Google Drive is bothering me, but I’ve told myself I can’t round back to them until this one is done (with an exception for the occasional short story here and there). On the positive side for Incinerate, I can finally say that it’s the longest writing project I have word-wise: with 28 chapters in the bag, it currently sits at over 100,000 words. In comparison, The Rokkoh Adventures, which combines the original three novellas and first short story, has just a little more than 80,000 words put together.

Good luck to all my fellow writers out there! And for those interested in diving deeper into the NaNoWriMo situation, I recommend this video to hear from other participants and Municipal Liaisons.

2023 Reading List Review

What did you read this year? Have you read any of these books?

The Works of S Lightfoot: Drake’s Demise

The following is a written translation of a modern oral history from the Elven colony Hameau d’Ailéver.

The farmers awoke on a chilly spring morning to find a few of their cattle had disappeared. A runaway every now and then was normal, but three gone by sunrise was odd. A party gathered to search for the missing animals, but by evening it proved a failed effort. They all went to bed hoping to find the runaways in the field the next morning, but were not so lucky. A couple horses had fled sometime in the night, it seemed. Another day of checking the surrounding woods and plains came and went with no trace of the animals. That night, one of the farmers stood watch to herd any deserters back to where they belonged. He, too, was nowhere to be found in the morning.

Yezekael, the mayor of the town, looked to the nearby mountains. Ages ago, a dragon had once dwelled there. Perhaps, he thought, it had grown hungry after so many years of rest. Come dusk, he and a band of his strongest men waited with their weapons drawn to take down whatever beast had been stealing his people’s livestock.

Deep into the night, the men began to wonder whether or not to abandon their mission, for nothing tried to escape or infiltrate. Then, the moon high in the sky went dark, blotted out by a dark mass. Its form grew larger and larger, wings flapping as it aimed for the farm. Yezekael grinned with grim determination; he had been right.

Archers readied their bows with notched arrows. Warriors gripped tight to their blades. Yezekael, an elf of gifted blood, prepared a snaring spell. The dragon drew near, and a hum vibrated through the air. Smaller winged creatures appeared, their silhouettes racing toward the farm as well. The dragon hummed again, and the barn doors opened. Cows, sheep, and horses strutted out, oblivious of the doom to which they appeared to be called.

Yezekael unleashed his men, then. Arrows flew toward the dragon and his minions, but only sunk into the flesh of the latter. One of the wyverns crashed to the dirt from its wounds, and the warriors descended upon it. The dragon lowered and swooped in a rush of wind, picking up a cow with each of its feet. The remaining wyverns did the same. His spell ready, Yezekael whipped his ghost-like lasso at the invaders. It took hold of a wyvern’s claw, and he ripped it from the sky. The sheep in its clutches wailed as it died upon impact, but better to serve its people than be a meal for winged worms, Yezekael thought.

The demons fled back toward the mountain with their stolen food. The men roared in victory over the two slain wyverns. But Yezekael, while proud of their accomplishments, did not celebrate. He ordered his men to deliver the beasts to the town butcher, and to say that the meat would be free to every family whosoever wished to feast.

When the following morning came, Yezekael made his way toward Oakwing, the nearest major settlement to his home. The trek took all morning, but by noon he passed through the tall gates of the city surrounded by a wall of stone. Inside, he navigated the streets until he came upon the Sheriff’s Tower, a mighty beacon of justice and order that gazed out upon its bustling citizens.

A small man sitting behind a desk greeted Yezekael once inside. The man’s head was bald on top, and his nose came to a long point at the end. His similarly pointed ears and pale complexion reminded Yezekael of an elf-kin brood, but its name was lost to him. Bright eyes shined behind spectacles, surrounded by wrinkles that somehow did not yet quell the aura of youthful optimism in him. Yezekael introduced himself in the Common tongue and told the attendant his story. The small man wrote something on a scrap of paper in an illegible scrawl, handed it to the elf, and told him to see Captain Hunt on the fourth floor.

Obeying the directions, Yezekael climbed the winding stairs up and up and up. He passed a floor for Oakwing guards, the Paladin Ward, and then finally landed on the fourth floor. Going through the door marked Captain’s Office, he found a quiet square room. The two walls on either side of him were lined with empty wooden chairs, their seats sporting cushions. Ahead of him sat a young woman with long brown hair and a fair complexion, and beyond her along the wall was a plain wooden door. As he closed the door behind him, she looked up from the roll of parchment in which she wrote. She welcomed him to the Captain’s Office and asked for his name and ticket. Yezekael gave them, handing over the scrap the man downstairs had given him. She looked it over for a moment, scribbling something down on a separate piece of paper. Several names were underlined and scratched out there as she added him to the list. Just as soon as he had sat down, the woman called to him, letting him know that Captain Hunt was ready to see him.

Yezekael entered the room and found the redheaded Captain Hunt sitting behind a desk of his own. Stacks of papers piled up on the desk in a neat and orderly organization. The man, dressed in his gilded steel armor sans helmet, looked at a piece of paper sitting between the two short towers and stamped the bottom of it, moving it the stack on his right. He looked up at Yezekael, a hard and stern look on his face as he bade the elf to speak. The latter repeated his plea, telling the man of the dragon and stolen livestock. Though he claimed he could spare no guards, Captain Hunt took Yezekael’s ticket, slammed a new stamp on it, and told the elf to head to the Paladin Ward for assistance. With a word of thanks, Yezekael left for the third floor.

A simple room awaited him. A table separated a pair of wooden chairs from another in the middle of the room. A door led to somewhere unknown on the wall that faced him. Yezekael stood alone in this room and wondered if he was in the right place. The first door had been labeled the Paladin Ward, but there seemed to be no paladins around. He called out, but no one came. He waited a moment longer before trying again, yet still received no response. He considered returning to Captain Hunt to tell him of the empty Paladin Ward, but instead listened to the guidance of his forefathers and chose patience. Just as soon as he sat in one of the wooden chairs, the door behind him opened.

Two figures clad in steel similar to Captain Hunt’s entered. The first was a tall woman with streaks of gray in her red hair. She laughed at something the man who accompanied her likely said before they arrived. He had onyx hair atop his head and across his face. He closed the door and greeted Yezekael. The man and woman introduced themselves as Rokkoh and Miea, respectively, the former being a new recruit to Oakwing’s Order of Paladins. He took the seat on the other side of the table as Yezekael began his plea for the third time. Miea, kneeling next to her colleague, produced a sheet of paper, a quill, and an inkwell. She wrote down everything the elf said, and when he was done, she added something else. She explained to both Yezekael and Rokkoh that services in the art of monster hunting had a flat starting rate of fifty gold, and the quantity or lethality of said monster would then add to the final total. An endeavor to slay a dragon would add a steep price of 150 gold, and its wyvern cousins would be fifty each. However, due to the dangerous nature of the job, only a down payment would be required. Yezekael agreed to pay half the total, setting a hefty coin purse upon the tabletop. He signed the paper, as did Rokkoh, and Miea materialized a second copy of the contract. One was given to Yezekael, and the other she kept.

Rokkoh and Yezekael set out from Oakwing, heading back north toward Hameau d’Ailéver. During the long walk, Yezekael learned that although Rokkoh had not been part of the Order for long, he had plenty of experience with his sword. He had received training at the Tower of Lost Children in Sylzaria. He had served under Everglow’s banner during their conflict with Elkenrast. He had slain vampires, cultists, and all manners of bestial fiends. While he had yet to face any breed of drake, Yezekael was nothing but confident in his hired protector.

The afternoon fell into early evening by the time they returned to the elf’s home. Citizens gathered to greet the paladin and offer their gratitude for returning with their leader. Yezekael and his people guided Rokkoh on a tour of the town, from the quiet homes to the small marketplace and eventually to the farmlands where the dragon had struck. They decided to reconvene there after dinner and prepare for their upcoming battle. (Or, as a couple of the elven soldiers darkly thought, they wanted one last meal before passing into the eternal paradise of Locort Ziotum.) Yezekael invited Rokkoh to his home to eat with his family, to which the man gladly accepted.

Soon, the blanket of night crept upon the town. With the moon rising through the black, Rokkoh, Yezekael, and his men congregated back at the farmlands. The soldiers resumed their positions from the night before, everyone’s eyes fixed upon the horizon. As if on cue, the massive shape of the dragon drew its silhouette against the light of the moon. Archers readied their bows and arrows, swordsmen readied their blades, and Yezekael and Rokkoh rushed to the barn doors. The paladin stepped inside, finding all the livestock resting. His hands outstretched to them, he said a prayer in his holy tongue over the animals. Yezekael kept silent so as not to disrupt the spell. When he was done, Rokkoh told Yezekael to lock the doors before heading toward the ladder leading to the mezzanine. The elf did as he was told, sliding the bolt into place once he was outside once more.

The dragon began its hum again, and Yezekael braced himself against the barn door to help keep it shut. However, he heard no stirring within. Part of him wanted to peek inside, but he stayed his hand. If keeping the door locked meant their peace would last longer, he did not wish to risk it. Instead, he prepared a stronger snaring spell than before on his lips as the dragon and its wyverns approached. The huge beast let out an angry roar when it saw that its call did not lure any prey, so its sights then went to those who kept it from its meal.

The drake’s underlings rushed forth and swooped feet-first to take hold of whomever they could catch. Arrows rained down upon the beasts, more precise than they had been the night before. Two fell then, and the other two fled. The great dragon, however, refused to bow. With a roar that rivaled the might of Nampurm the Novhina of Storms, it spewed from its razor-filled maw a thick tendril of flame. It scorched across the earth, lighting up the farmland with its vicious orange. It circled around and rose in the air before advancing toward its tiny foes. It prepared a new stream from its throat as Yezekael released his spell. The lasso stretched far but still found the long scaled neck of the beast. His hands gripped tight on the invisible rope, and every muscle tightened as he pulled against it. His strength, however, was unmatched compared to that of the dragon. With a twist of its neck, the dragon flung Yezekael into the air. Higher and higher he soared from the pull. His magical lasso dissipated and left his hands empty. Though he had sometimes wondered what it would be like to fly, Yezekael never considered this to be how he would learn.

Something from the roof of the barn caught his eye. A golden glow, bright and shimmering, sped toward the edge. It stretched out to a point on top, and after a blink Yezekael could see what it was. A holy aura surrounded Rokkoh as he leapt from the barn roof with his sword held high with both hands. The glow disappeared behind the beast as it passed, but a flash of the gold shone like a star for all but a fraction of a second. Rokkoh landed on the dragon’s back, riding it as it plummeted to the ground. Yezekael saw then his own fast descent and spoke a spell of cushioning. He crashed, yet was grateful that the fall brought him only a rough soreness instead of broken bones.

Aside from the lapping of the flames and the occasional groan of a soldier, a quiet settled through the farmland. Survivors of the battle gathered around the largest of the three masses. Hushed wonder came from their lips, and Yezekael understood why: Rokkoh sat upon the dragon’s head several yards away from the rest of its body. A tired but victorious look painted the man’s face as he cleaned the dragon’s blood from his long steel blade. Yezekael ordered his mean to fetch water pails to put out the fires that spread across the farmland and to notify the butcher of their latest great meat harvest. He thanked the paladin from Oakwing and invited him back to his home to rest.

The following day was met with celebration and disbursement of the delicacy of dragon meat. Even Rokkoh packed some away to take home with him. There was much drinking, much music, much laughter. The joy in Hameau d’Ailéver stretched on through the afternoon and into the following evening. Rokkoh insisted on staying an extra night to make sure the dragon did not have its own friends waiting for it in the mountains. Darkness fell and they all waited at the farmlands once more, but nothing came for them or their livestock. The town went to sleep that night in peace. The paladin departed the following morning, and dragons never terrorized the Elven colony ever again.

013 NaNoWriMo 2023: Week One

Here we are at the end of the first week of NaNoWriMo! Taking some time off from work certainly helped, though I didn’t write as much as I wanted to with my extra time. I am still struggling with getting started each day, which affects my final word count of the day, but I’m determined to turn it around here on out.

Here is my current word count for the week, excluding today, which will be part of Week Two’s results:

Day 1: 2398
Day 2: 2155
Day 3: 530
Day 4: 1717
Total: 6800

Let’s keep this momentum going for Week Two!

012 NaNoWriMo 2023: Week Zero

Call me a clumsy athlete, because I dropped the ball. Last year for NaNoWriMo, I announced I would continue to work on Incinerate. Well, I did, but I didn’t post any updates AND I fell short of the 50,000 word goal by a lot. At the end of the month, I only ended up with 2900 words written. I could come up with a litany of excuses, but ultimately it all comes down to me being lazy. (Though, I will say that Incinerate now sits at over 77,000 words, so that’s cool.) The last time I reached the 50,000 word goal for NaNoWriMo was way back in 2014 with a Young Adult novel called Ghost (currently unfinished), and I had reached the goal the year prior with a Thriller called Serienmorder (also unfinished). I came close to the goal in 2015 with a Sci-Fi/Fantasy/Western called The Desert Towns of Felorjia where I wrote just shy of 34,000 words, but have since failed to crack 14,000 words.

Nine years is a long enough drought, don’t you think?

This year for NaNoWriMo I’m doing something a little different. I had considered continuing to work on Incinerate, but my interest kept going to a dusty folder in my Google Docs. I have mentioned it here before, but over a decade ago I wrote a novella called The Blade and the Bullet. A supernatural tale, it followed vampire Daniel Cross as he sought answers for mysterious deaths in Seattle. I’ve posted a link to it over on Booksie before, but after rereading it recently I cannot recommend it. Maybe it’s because I’ve grown so much since I originally wrote it, but sweet baby Jesus it is terrible. Cringey dialogue, tryhard edginess, shit that just doesn’t go anywhere or make sense… it had it all.

That said, Daniel Cross has always been one of my favorite characters since I first used him as a roleplay character back in the Myspace days. (Those were dark times, friends. Dark times.) After writing the original novella, I had started on another story with him, but like so many other projects it was eventually shelved. In 2015, I rebranded The Blade and the Bullet and its sequel as The Cross Chronicles. NaNoWriMo 2016 was dedicated to that sequel. And now, in 2023, I have decided to return to Daniel Cross’s side of the world.

Over the course of the past week, I have reread the original novella from a decade ago. I’ve made a whole new outline for the story, extensive notes on what to change or replace, and a side document solidifying lore and rules of the world. Now, I’m not going to lie, I have kinda already started my rewrite. The Cross Chronicles: Homebound is set to be a far superior story compared to the dumpster fire that The Blade and the Bullet was. I look forward to sharing it with you sometime in the future.

To help with accountability, you can add me as a buddy! I also plan to post updates every Sunday with my progress for the week. I’ll be taking the first week off from work (except for Monday) to help give me a head start.

Good luck to all my fellow NaNoWriMo participants! 

Book Review: “Branches” by Tatiana Carey

I liked this book a lot, so enjoy this spoiler free review!

011 – Updates and Thoughts

So, it’s been a couple weeks now since my last post. I thought that today would be a good time to update everyone on things as of late, so here we go.

Smallville Comic Con was great! I sold about half of my stock of The Rokkoh Adventures, and of course my friend Jody, who was hosting the event, got a copy for free for inviting me. I also sold some of the books from my personal library to a fellow Stephen King fan. I got to meet some cool new people, see some folks I hadn’t in a little while, and even my brother and his girlfriend showed up! It was so nice being there, and the sunburn was worth it.

Because I’ve been devoting brainpower toward Rokkoh and his world lately, I have been wanting to return to his tales more and more lately. This has taken attention away from Incinerate. I’ll be honest: I haven’t written much of Incinerate in the past few weeks. It also doesn’t help that I’ve hit a motivation roadblock regarding the project. I know once I get through this particular part in the story I’ll get back on track, but I’m just having a rough time trudging through the mud.

I’ve also been contemplating whether or not to continue updating it here. The chapters (or chapter parts, depending on chapter length) don’t get as many reads as other posts. Most readers have seemingly been more into just about everything else I post here. Maybe it’s the backlog of chapters/posts they would need to read to catch up that makes it a bit daunting, or maybe it’s the genre that doesn’t look appealing (or, perhaps, it’s just not good). Regardless, I’m on the fence about posting future chapters. I also need to take into account publishing options down the road. Traditional publishers probably won’t be keen on the fact that it’s already been serialized online. Even if I self-publish, the fact that it’s posted for free on my website kind of deviates would-be buyers from purchasing the final printed or digital product.

I’ve been thinking about this regarding the Rokkoh stories as well. When it comes time to add in the new things I want in The Rokkoh Adventures that have not yet been posted here, I’m worried that interest will wane from prospective readers since it’s available for free already. So now I’m also considering taking down pretty much all of my long-form content. The short stories and poetry will likely stay up since people tend to read those more. I also might change how often I post, perhaps with only monthly updates and the occasional shorter piece. I haven’t made any final decisions yet, though, so anything could happen.

Last, I want to cycle back around to the copies of The Rokkoh Adventures I had brought to Smallville Comic Con. I still have a dozen or so left, and they won’t do any good just sitting on my shelf. So, I would like to offer them to you. In order to weed out scammers/fraudsters (my spam box here is full of them), the ordering instructions will be on my Facebook this Sunday. Once they’re gone, they’re gone. I have no plans to order further copies of the Uncorrected Proof. So if you want one, now is the time.